Last published 26 Sept 2013.
I think it must be a mistake.. lol. how could I had abandoned my blog for so long..
but well. time never lies. haha.

I noticed.. the older u get.. the less u write.. haha...
frens with blog.. few years back..they would write a long grand-mother-story of what they ate for lunch.. now.. they updated with juz two sentences..a photo + a selfie.. =.= can u believe it.
some even forgot about blogging. (dat includes me)

well.. guess.. we all have now.. more important things to do in life.. (*ahem ahem*)

I m starting to forget:
1) how to write a piece of blog that will make people laugh (ya..like u ever wrote one.)
2) how to hold a dslr
3) how to play the piano
4) how watching movie in the theatre feels like..
5) how eating sushi wif a group of frens feels like.
6) how to read a book.
7) how sitting under a tree feels like..
8) how sitting on a rock waiting for bus while the snow falls n touches ur face feels like..
9) how to walk home late at night with a scout knife in ur pocket.
10) how to laugh heartily.

The reality is like a rapid current..once u dive in..it will bring u with it..lost in the flow..lost in time.
unless u found something strong like a beautiful rock along the way to hold on to, muster your strength to get back on land...
stop, rest, and witness how others got sweep away.
but at the back of ur head. u know. dat current will bring you somewhere.. somewhere further..n u will have to get back in.
so, at d end. u gather enough courage n dive in again. u realize. d next pit stop. will be somewhere down d stream. u dunno where it will be..when will u find it. but u knw..it will be there. then again. u got lost in time.
Among the cold n darkness, u just need to stay strong..n the next daybreak will be here.. by then u will be able to find dat next rock. =)


I noticed. I do not often apologize. I do not know why. maybe I forgot to say dat word..or maybe I do not like abusing the value of "sorry" too often. it is kind of a heavy word.. or maybe I juz dun have my moral n integrity..
when I know where my mistake is. I will fix it.
when u point out where my mistake is..I will ask how can I fix it..n then I will fix it.
when I know I m wrong dis time. I won't repeat it next time.
u can call me arrogant..n all sort of things..
I juz dun like saying n also hearing the word "sorry"..
coz it is like an excuse to cover ur ignorance..
or just an ignorance to put in an excuse.
juz simple as dat.
I knw..a lot of  things cannot be fixed.. then for those..I will apologize.
coz remorse and shame comes from the heart..not verbally.
I guess.. dat is how I value d word "sorry"..
I do not know if dis is right n acceptable.. but well..
as I say. I m not really good in my moral.

I prefer living life by my principles..as long as it is right by the law.
haha.. if u get hurt emotionally..then well..I dun see how u got hurt..so I dun really care.
coz emotion changes every single second. u can be unhappy, furious, angry  from top to toe of wad I did now. but d next day u should be fine. haha.. n yes. u should be fine coz u will knw life is too short for shit like me. LOL.

coz sometimes.. gosh.. it is juz so FARKING HARD to please everyone.. n life is juz too farking short for dat. lol.

You Live Everyday! but You Only Die Once. so Yes. Sorry. Died trying too hard to please everyone is definitely not on my list and will not be on my list. I m not a clown. hahaha.
(yes. please have a lot of respect for clowns..I mean real clowns..not the clown u use "u clown" to scold people with..coz I guess deep inside.. they have died many times to please the crowd. haha)