FIRST

First post using my first laptop..

guess I had alot of first time..

so.. still trying to cope with this kanasai laptop.. have to familiar with the keys.. last time pc keyboard was bigger.. I miss my Dell at home.. although it is kanasai..but still cute n nice ok.. my first dekstop pc.. lolx

now considering .. shall I get my first music keyboard? since I ady had my first piano..

hmm... guess I will have many first times in this city called Toronto n in this maple leaf country called Canada.. Am I prepared? hahaha........... but a good one ok..not a negative one..

I m trying to keep a clean mind now.. xD

So.. about one week in Toronto Mississauga ady.. many things left undone yet.. and many things waiting to be done..

I am wondering.. Am I organized enough to make my own life??

sometimes I just dunno what the fark I am doing .. =.=

Sometimes.. I feel I am spiritless.. like a wandering body without its mind.. You can't live with a body without mind..

Where is my mind.. ?

Havta find back my spirit .. to keep me motivated and keep going again... =)

I need something to keep me motivated.. wondering what made me come to this stage..must had something that motivated me rite? dun tell me it is merely fate.. or maybe it was..

So.. despite all that .. just have to motivate myself now.. I really dunno what motivated me last time.. Since my direction changed..I lost my motivation.. T.T

the first thing now.. find back my direction.. U knw wat is my new direction now rite? Biotechnology.. I will excel in this field and make tonnes of biodegradable money in the future.. Muahahaha.... xD

Hope I will not get into my emo state next week.. pray hard.. I really dun like it when emotion take control of my lost mind.. since my mind is lost.. emotion replacing it.. but I really dun want this to happen.. Is it coz of Biology..body own reaction?? hahaha....

Sometimes..many people said I am emo.. or..quiet.. or not so socialable.. but one thing I can tell you.. You do not really understands me.. lolx.. I take time to mix around.. coz my firewall is too strong.. =.=

No la.. will make new friends when class start.. if not.. what is the f**king point to study oversea if u do not have friends with blonde hair..and friends with red hair.. n so on?

By the way.. I had promised myself a thing.. and you know me.. I do keep to my promises.. A promise is to be kept.. so .. I will DO It! .. Yes!

one more strange thing.. I do not really want to tell.. but after I reached Toronto.. I really lost my interest in something.. ( dun want to make it clear..) .. but I think I will just focus on my study.. HAHAHAHA......... lolx... xD beauty doesn't move my heart.. =.= hahhaa...

Only heart can move a heart.. rite? =)