Looks like I somehow still bearing the heat wave.. 43 degree celsius today... OMFG..

Landlady:" Michael.. u have to discuss with Vishaek (the other housemate) to clean the bathroom.. it is so dirty.. the showering area..blah..blah..blah..."

U see... the weather has been so so so hot hot hot these couple of days.. 40 degree to 45 degree celsius ... and this guy is working till evening everyday.. at the end.. it will only be me cleaning the bathroom... with no bloody air conditioning... U THINK I M A BLOODY DUMB ASS?! U want me to locked in the bathroom and clean the whole shit?! FARK U!! Even my room is burning like hell... the bathroom even like hell-est.. u shower and sweat together in the bathroom... INSANE SHIT

In ur dream I m going to clean it... u promise us air conditioning for summer heat... NO SINGLE SHIT FROM THAT U HAVE DONE... now U WANT ME TO CLEAN THE BATHROOM IN A SO FARKING HOT 45 degree celsius weather? *middle finger... oOo oOo who is gonna pay for my medical fees if I fainted during the cleaning in such a hot hot hot temperature? WAIT TILL WINTER only I will consider cleaning the bathroom.. u silly bitch!!!

sometimes... things that u chose ... people dun like and they somehow blamed u...and wanted to blame u more and made u felt bad.. u think I want this to happen?! u forgot we were in deep shit and had no direction that time? this was .. ya.. a rash decision... yaya.. my bad... fark..

When things went wrong... ya.. everyone feels bad...everyone wants to find a way to escape... ok..that is fine...

Attachment --> Dissatisfactory --> Suffering ....

I m going to take the middle way... neither any extreme side.. not gonna blame anyone...not gonna hate anyone...not gonna say anything... and not gonna think about things that have not been done... all these will only make me feel worse...

=) release the negative thoughts and feels the calmness in ur mind... hahah.... meditation.. Woohoo... A heat stress like this...needs cool meditation...and of course a fan that is facing u... xD

Cheers people! hahaha.......

Do not compare... it will only make u feel bad..coz u always compare with the best and u will feel cheated... unless u compare with the poor..then u will feel fortunate...

Do not hate... it comes from and leads to anger... anger leads to suffering urself..

A table is a table only when everything from it joined and form a table...

If there is a table..then the screws must have the "tableness" rite? If u take out the screws from the table...are the screws the table? No..

If there is a table..then the woods must have the "tableness" rite?

So when u take the woods out from the table .. are the woods the table? No..

If u take the metals out from the table.. are the metals the table? No..

so.. what is it that is a table?

If u take everything out from the table...from screws to woods.. to metals...etc.. at the end.. it will be left with nothing... so after the breaking down part..where is the table?

Nothing is everything... and everything is nothing... =)

If everything is a big deal.. then what is it with nothing is a big deal?

Let say nothing is a big deal... do u think everything is still a big deal?

Cheers!

Deep stuff eh? ya.. digest it slowly.. lol...

Dun cry over stuff that we dun have and will not get... cherish stuff that we have now.. and appreciate them before they are gone... =)

Dun say this post of mine is too deep.. or piece of crap.. partly of it is due to the heat stress.. and partly of it .. I realize... heat stress or no heat stress... it is still a matter of matter or non matter..

keys off... =D