Slept less than 3 hours..
gonna go class like a boss..
n it is 8am..
outside.. sun not yet rise??!!

What a Gloooomy day.. hahaha....

after one assignment another assignments due soon.. wtf..
thinking about how I m suppose to write 14 reports on my fungi (n none of it is the formal report yet..F..).. is enough to motivate me to swallow knives... FU(CK)NGI
n I haven't keep them properly in order yet.. AahhHH... I m so fucked! xD

November... =) Month of ... ..... ............ (ok..I can't think of anything creative rite now.. brain jammed..)
Fine.. I m no creative..
I m no artist..
I m no poet..
I m no writer..

but... I m a hardcore blogger..!
WHO ELSE FARKING BLOG IN EARLY MORNING RIGHT AFTER HE DONE PRINTING HIS ASSIGNMENT?!

lol.. Ciao!
another day to bring out the umbrella.. = = zzZ so sick of umbrella...why can't they juz make it without need to hold them in ur hand?? Oh!..there is.. Rain Coat!! n u will look like a giant walking banana..haha
FUK U RAIN!

Sandy

Hurricane Sandy..
Beautiful name but deadly..
u destroy things in ur path..
leaving a woman dead in the south.
u r mean, Sandy.

ha.. wind howling like crazy outside..
like madness knocking on death's door..
n shout trick or treat..

zzZ hope my window survive the constant beating of harsh wind n rain on its cold surface.. (I saw some cracks liao.. lol..)

everybody goes chaotic coz of dis hurricane.. some say prepare for 72 hours without electric.. prepare for dis n dat.. blah blah blah..
what I say is.. "Prepare for NO CLASS tomoro" Lool..
(but deep inside.. I know.. always believe in.. UTM will still open tmr.. no need to say for tmr.. IT WILL STILL OPEN EVEN IF A LARGE METEOR GONNA STRIKE EARTH! ... care for student's safety.. my Ass.. hahaha...)

what is funnier was.. despite all the chaotic hurricane..wind..people dying..houses blown away.. my friends still happily book their tickets to US trip this coming winter.. HAHA gee... such positive n relax nature they having.. lol... looks like they can't wait to get their ass there to see Sandy..haha..
if 21 Dec is really the end of the world.. Lol.. then we won't be seeing each other again.. xD since they leaving on the 20th.. zzZ lolol..
I dun believe in the end of world.. but I believe major disasters are coming..
see... one big hurricane liao.. hahaha....

thinking about all the fallen beautiful maple leaves (that I not yet taken photo of) result of Sandy's anger  made me FURIOUS!!
n teach me two things.. "Always bring a camera wif u at all cost..even if ur bag has no more space n u have to choose btwn a camera and a water bottle" hahaha...
Second, "Never wait or doubt urself.. if u like something..juz make ur move.. like the maple leaves..should have collected some first.. x( "
lool...
Sandy, u come at the wrong time!


Time to snug into my bed..
(Hope my window will still be there when I wake up...)

Juz watched the documentary film "Food, Inc."
believe some of u might have watched it..
it examines the food processing industry, farming in the States..
but I think any country around the globe uses somehow the same system too, not juz the U.S.
We have been kept in the dark for a very long time (sort of..) of how our food comes from.. (n of course d answer is not from the supermarket..haha)

in the film, it says that.. mass production of our food started from fast food chains.. ya..McD is one of them..(being the largest purchaser of beef, chickens..pork..lettuce..tomatoes..potatoes..apples etc. coz at first they wanted to produce chicken n beef of the same size.. so their burgers will taste the same everywhere..
Well..basically the whole system is fucked up.. it is inhumane..unhealthy..n destroying our environment..

dis film is very good n mind blowing..if u wanted to know how ur food arrive on ur table..how it is grown..how it is produced..n so on.. n of course the impact on our health..life.. n definitely the very heavy impact on the Earth for what I think..

Now even our food is messed up.. Food -> ur primary key to continue living.. (besides water)

after watching dis film.. I start to doubt whether I should continue to eat or not.. ha.. it's juz so depressing..


"You will never look at dinner the same way"

Played 3 hours badminton again today..
haha... among that.. played one hour with a group of 5 first year medical students..
ya..I shall not comment on how they play..lol.. but ya..medical students leh... knowing how hard it is for them to get into med school at here.. they must be at the top in their class.. haha... such a long hard road to get to where they are now.. haha.. not to mention the years n years n years.. 4 years undergrad..4 years med school.. n plus residency.. omg..

after that.. talked abit with them... n ya..blah blah blah.. usual stuff...asking what program I m doing..n what I will do wif my degree..any plan to go to grad school? things like that.. lol... n as usual.. my answer is always.. nah..I dun hav any plan so far.. xD

then.. before they left.. they wished me best of luck in my final year..u r almost there they said.. xD
u see.. the thing I like about playing badminton on Fridays.. is that.. u can always meet new people..strangers.. n everyone play on the court like we have known each other for a long time..lol.. ya..that is what sports is all about.. =) bringing people together.. hahaha....
n the best is.. u met some of them again the following week... hehehe...

n for dinner.. ya.. I ate like no tomorrow again.. LOL!! (okok..I know it is not right.. but who cares..as long as I m happy wif that.. =P )

so much things to do again next week. zzZ

Finally..the all WHAT-THE-FARK-BUSY week is over.. LOL!..
n of course.. WHAT THE FARK Another Busy week is coming up.. Hahaha....

Seminar presentation.. ya..NERVOUS LIKE SHIT.. nerve wrecking.. but luckily I didn't stumble.. xD
so.. ya.. didn't do good.. but so fortunate to have two other members who are so GOOD in presenting.. =)

Mycology midterm.. =) got it back.. ya.. didn't do as good as I expected..but overall still okay.. very satisfied.. lol.. the questions on matching each species to their habitat..the disease they causing n etc..got full mark.. =D Prof commented Excellent Very Good at the end.. hahah... so yup.. I admit I m VERY GOOD in memorizing NAMES of genus n species..HAHA... remembered the anthropology course I did in summer where I managed to memorize tonnes of names? hehe... should have done something in taxonomy.. xP
(sorry.. I always syok sendiri..)

Hmm... many people have been asking me lately..
"What r u going to do wif ur biotech degree after graduation?"
my coursemates asked me...
my lab partners asked me..
my housemate from Montreal asked me..
the people from my voluntary work asked me..
my brothers asked me...
my close friends asked me..
my friends asked me..
even strangers asked me..

hahaha.... I didn't have an answer for u all before this..
but while I was typing this post..
I finally found an answer..
"YES! I m gonna hang it on the wall. xD "

haha.. okay.. time to zzZ ..
have a nice week folks..
for those who having tests coming up still..
sucks to be u.. xP

n there I had mycology test (fungi midterm) today.. 

was happily doing the paper..smoothly... full of confidence..

meh.. while thinking would get another 100% again dis time.. lol... 

THEN

BAM!! at the last page..

there this kanasai one question 

worth 10%

n I didn't know the answer.. 

T_T

I knew the prof showed this one animation in class... but I recalled vaguely the details.. x( fml.. 

ya..didn't study hard enough.. there it goes.. if only I remembered to look back d animation online..maybe I would have totally nailed this paper like a boss.. 

so.. dream broken.. LOL...

This week's Stress level.. : ULTIMATE EXPLODING LEVEL!! 

If I have the power to turn my stress level to energy... I can definitely no doubt kill a T-REX with my left middle finger lol... HAHAHA

Back to study.. x( 

3 hours badminton... 1km on the boat rowing machine.. 50 times with 30ibs on the sit-up machine.. 50 times with 30ibs on the chest work machine.. 5 chin ups (ya..Lol.. from one previously to five now..it is so hard hanging there like a monkey trying to pull urself up..but i saw other people can do like so EASILY.. wtf... ) n 30 times 10kg dumbbells each arm...

ALL THESE SHIT JUZ TO MAKE SURE I EXHAUSTED MYSELF ENOUGH TO HAVE A GOOD SLEEP TONIGHT.. x( had been sleeping so light these days like there gonna be a bomb dropped on my room each night n i have to be alert 24 hours.. wtf.. lol

but... ya... indeed I felt fresher n many more energy left now.. hahahaha.... could still go for another 3 hours squash.. xD  but I was drop dead hungry.. now I m full...I feel I m all pumped up to go kill some bears.. xD
People has been asking me .. y r u pushing urself so hard? u want to build muscles ah?
NO!!! I juz wanna release all the stress that is building up in me... I gotta RELEASE them all out...so that I won't crashed at the end of the day..haha... my nerves can't take all those heavy shit.. my mental isn't that strong.. LOOL!!... so I have to find a way to release stress n stay healthy?

but I dun think so.. pushing urself so hard isn't healthy at all...hahahaha.... n of course it isn't if u go do tonnes of shit in the gym.. then u go get urself a McD 3 burgers for dinner... that is like SUICIDAL.. Hahahaha.....but I drank milk instead of coke..so I m all good? xD

Did I tell u I watched this "The fabulous life of filthy rich billionaires" on youtube the other day... n gee... i was thinking.. How on earth can a person be so FILTHY RICH?! What have they done to get so much $$?  (those billionaires actually competing wif each other in building the largest MegaYatch every year..when one of them got the largest megayatch..another of them will make another one larger..totally Crazy to spend all the $$ like that..but well..they can rite..with all the money they have..haha...)
what i think is .. instead of spending their billions n billions like dat.. wouldn't it be better if they put the money into better use? like making the world a better place... save mother Earth.. "re-greenerize" our lands..etc.
well..at least Bill Gates did the right thing by his contribution in healthcare.. (his net worth 50 billion n still growing.. = = insane shit.. maybe now more..as i dun know how long ago was the video)

however... I said these things coz I didn't make billion n billion of dollars.. LOL... juz imagine.. if u having billion n billion of dollars n ur fortune is still growing everyday.. Won't u be like one of them? everything everyone dreams of.. is juz within ur reach.. hahaha....no matter whether or not u want to be a good samaritan..a philanthropist..etc..
who doesn't want such life? if u say u don't.. u know u r lying.. Hahaha....


Okay.. time to study...
n stop bullshitting.. coz that won't get me anywhere... Lol...

that darker and gloomy side of me haunts again...
it's juz so hard to always stay bright..positive..n happy...
haha... it's tired to convince urself that u can do things..

looking at my keyboard piano.. i feel so sorry coz I can't remember when was the last time I played it.. gotta find back the great good feeling of immersing myself in something as wonderful as music again...lol..

got this insight from my fungi course ha... those mushrooms rot and decay very fast... the moment u picked it up from the ground or woods..before u even get to know its name.. it is already dead and dry..
juz as how our life is.. the moment v picked up something..hold on to it..keep telling ourselves that things will turn better... the next moment before v even realize..decades had passed.. n v r left wandering in the momentum of trying hard to make things better... ha...

saw this somewhere frm the net.. "two words about life... moving on.." n also saw something like this.. "it doesn't matter if u run..walk...or crawl.. the point is..u just have to keep moving on in life.."
Both are pretty good sum up of what life is all about... u just cannot stay at one point....coz there is juz no time for u to look back n feel all sorry or regret of what u have done or haven't done... haha...

Okay.. gotta sleep.. Ciaozz
*eventually yesterday was a sleepless night too.. haha...went to class at 8+am like a boss in the rain..zzZ*

Sad to break it out.. lol...
but my latest..new..recent..addiction..is..
NUTELLA..!!

was being so skeptical about nutella... but not till I tasted it for the SECOND time in my life at the field trip campfire..
HAHAHA.... ya..u may be asking WTF..u never like Nutella?!
ya.. when people around me keep showing their love for Nutella.. I was .. Meh..that is for kids.. come on.. it can't be that good.. BUT I WAS WRONG.. HAHAHAHA....

lol..was so puzzling whether to get a peanut butter...or nutella juz now (people must had had this kind of funny faces when they passed by me at the store seeing a nerd holding a peanut butter jam n looking so intently at the Nutella..lool).. well at d end..i still opt for the latter.. HAHAHA....Come on give Nutella a chance! haha coz peanut butter might cause cancer.. n i believe nutella..has lower risk of causing cancer??
ya.. maybe diabetes.. lolol... anyway.. getting diabetes is still luckier.. n u won't have that traumatic lightning struck face when ur doctor break it out to u after 20 years that u got diabetes versus if u got cancer.. xD
i didn't say nutella is good for ur health..
But..At least.. IT MAKES ME HAPPY.. =D

still.. I was craving for peanut butter.. x( never mind.. now I found my Nutella.. hehehehe....

ya.. n I found that Coke made me happy always too...

yes.. I m so not living a healthy lifestyle..
juz by seeing what is the time nw that I m still on blogger to write dis crap..while drinking coke n continuously stabbing my knife into the heavenly delicious Nutella n spreading them so thick on the bread that even a diabetic grandma would kill for although it means she has to get ten insulin injections right after... LOOL..

Hooray.. it is good to be in ur 20s... where although u r worried if u might die of some ridiculous disease at an earlier age than ur fellow peers.. but u still have that kind of mindset of .. WHO CARES! I JUZ WANNA BE HAPPY NOW... xD

SUGAR RULES!!! lool...

I never like stuff that are sweet... n dis sudden change of me made me feel so confused about my gender orientation...HAHA... well .. maybe it's genetics inherited frm my mom.. zzZ = =