that darker and gloomy side of me haunts again...
it's juz so hard to always stay bright..positive..n happy...
haha... it's tired to convince urself that u can do things..

looking at my keyboard piano.. i feel so sorry coz I can't remember when was the last time I played it.. gotta find back the great good feeling of immersing myself in something as wonderful as music again...lol..

got this insight from my fungi course ha... those mushrooms rot and decay very fast... the moment u picked it up from the ground or woods..before u even get to know its name.. it is already dead and dry..
juz as how our life is.. the moment v picked up something..hold on to it..keep telling ourselves that things will turn better... the next moment before v even realize..decades had passed.. n v r left wandering in the momentum of trying hard to make things better... ha...

saw this somewhere frm the net.. "two words about life... moving on.." n also saw something like this.. "it doesn't matter if u run..walk...or crawl.. the point is..u just have to keep moving on in life.."
Both are pretty good sum up of what life is all about... u just cannot stay at one point....coz there is juz no time for u to look back n feel all sorry or regret of what u have done or haven't done... haha...

Okay.. gotta sleep.. Ciaozz
*eventually yesterday was a sleepless night too.. haha...went to class at 8+am like a boss in the rain..zzZ*