Cicak. Tail.

saw my blog list. many of my frens has stopped blogging. LOL!
Is it time for me to quit as well..? but I enjoy writing shit here. hahaha....
guess when u get busy with living...u will have to giv up so many other things along the way. x(
I already stopped watching anime...watching drama...watching korean variety shows...even not interested in tv (only watch news everyday..sign of aging..lolol..)..d list goes on..
but one thing I still do.. reading manga. hehehehehe....
coz I want to keep dat one childish thing so I can proudly tell my grandkids next time. ur grandpa read wad u reading u knw. HAHAHAHA!!!...

no great stories to tell at d moment.
d best I could come out wif is.. I saw a cicak (lizard) today. lol..
Almost forgotten dis cute little creature ever existing on earth... coz I didn't see any cicak in Toronto for 4 years.
Cicak.. d best escape artist next to David Copperfield. hahaha...
d cicak I saw today was..TAIL-LESS.
n it reminds me of .. d one horrible event I encountered when I was 10.
Stepped on a icy cold cicak wif my bare foot. *shiver*.
it felt like u were stepping on an ice cube..except dat ice cube is slippery n it is moving.. wriggling tail..LOL.
no wonder. dey called it cold blooded. really icy cold.. zzzzz

okie..enuf of cicak story. dat was d "Great Escape of Cicak from Michael's Tyrannical Foot".
Did I mention I saw dis cute baby cicak feeding on fruit flies outside my window last week.
gee..couldn't even see its tongue n d pity fruit fly was gone. T_T
wanted to grab my dslr n take a video..then put it to slow motion n see its tongue. but too late. it was gone after I grabbed my dslr. =.= zzz
yo. enuf bro. no ones want to hear about cicak anymore. =.=
okok..

few days back. was called to write dis one page crap on..personal branding..how would u brand urself.
Out of any marvellous ideas..n d laziness to think..also due to writing it last minute.. I started writing a whole crap branding myself as an introvert..
hehehehe.... d rest u can go figure it out urself.
lol. after dat dey haven't gimme any response until nw.
hehehehe.... come on! I m juz being honest.. xP
guess an introvert is branded as a freak in today's industry dat requires more extrovert to get things done. =.=

lol.. okie. dat's all. no more stories. xD
Ciao!.. till I have more interesting shit to blog about.

带着相机行走天涯

黑白之键寻找生命的灵感

活出自在，活出自己。

I didn't know what killed my passion in music...art...philosophy..history...but I start finding them back not long ago..hahaha. 

Between the beech hardwood n spring steel..

I once lost to reality.

Doing what you love..n loving what you do.. 

is another whole new level to learn.... 

but for now. juz start doing the one thing u need to do that matters for all. 

=D

Volunteer service for 8 days...early morning out..back at night..

I do not think or feel that I m that kind-loving-generous-good-guy type of person..LOL... I m definitely not that good...

why do I still do all the hard work when there is no pay or any reward...etc.

I do not know...

I juz feel good when I think I help a little...  

also it is a good way to learn.. 忍人所不能忍，行人所不能行

=D

Farewell

Sent two friends to d airport dis evening..they are going home...very soon..many are going home too..one by one..we bid farewell.. n very soon too..I m saying goodbye.. n embark on another new page of life..

Mixed feelings... a little bit of sadness sinks in... 

5 years...

We come across..meet..n share..with many people during different stages in our life... everyone of them..more or less...will leave a footprint in our memories... 

Here..I wish them the best of the very best of everything in life...

I know it by heart... everyone of you will lead a beautiful life..a life full of colors which the most famous painter on the ten peaks will stand in awe n envy.. A color of life uniquely yours... 

so, 

till we meet again... 

LIVE!

then tell me your legendary life.. =)

Lost in the fog

A new phase of life is approaching... 

I can feel fear slowly creeping in.

Stepping into a whole new domain...

so different than the friendly terrain.

I fear that my dreams are too high to reach... 

What are my dreams? Be useful or be rich? 

I wanted to be like Einstein...

leaving his legacy behind.

A simple equation for man...

n give every student the pain.
then I end up being with Bio-logy...

so nasty worms don't eat the veggie.

Where is my next destination?

I am still in hesitation...

Heavy fog settled in...

n that the fear seeps in.

Let my stronger heart lead...
n walk to the higher peak?
Or feel my way with feet...

n wait in the eerie mist?

Either one but none promise..

Wait..did I wear those proper shoes..?

Step in the right shoes make no woes..

LOL. a few drinks of caffeine let me write this.. (not beer...mind you that..lol)

couldn't deny myself.. I am a farking genius..! 

entirely RANDOM piece.. though not a very good one. LMAO! 

still.. so proud of myself.. lol..(sorry.. have't been perasan for awhile. hahaha)

If you bo song.. ya.. I admit a 6 year old can write this too. AHAHAHA... 

damn.. I should copyright this for 50 years. LOL!! xD

okay. haha... left my blog deserted for more than a month yet only I realized "Ya! I have a blog!" juz a moment ago.
Have a lot in mind to write.. about my 2+ weeks Europe backpacking trip (a.k.a Walk-Around-Europe) LOL... about something of something.. n about anything of everything..
but.. I couldn't find words to start d long grandfather story.
so to cut it short..
"THE WORLD IS A BOOK & THOSE WHO DO NOT TRAVEL READ ONLY ONE PAGE" -Augustine of Hippo.

 "There are no foreign lands. It is the traveler only who is foreign" - Robert Louis Stevenson.

"I have found out that there ain't no surer way to find out whether you like people or hate them than to travel with them" - Mark Twain.

"A journey is best measured in friends, rather than miles" - Tim Cahill.

& gee.. I start to miss Barcelona and Paris already.. LOL..

and another thing.. I finished reading a book by Dan Brown "The Da Vinci Code"!
yaya.. I knew dis book was history.. hahaha..but yes Dan Brown is now on my list of favourite authors. lol. n judging from how he only published another new book in the series after so many years..it is juz all fine I started to read Da Vinci Code.. now I dun have to wait for his new books.. LOL.. ya..kinda make sense. xD

will proudly present some of the photos I humbly taken by my amateur n unpolished photographing skills.. n of course..I think I have some hidden potentials to be a good photographer.. lol.. xP

alrite.. dats all for nw. Ciao!

People keep asking me "so what's next?"
- "To live"

Went for a movie dis week wif housemates.. lol. an animation from DreamWorks (my all time favorite animation producer other than Pixar and Disney..haha) called "The Croods"..

This movie is well beyond my expectations.. I alrd had a very high expectation after I saw the trailer last summer..lol..n it is indeed a very awesome animation wif lots of lessons to learn. haha...if u asked me will I watch for the second time.."Yes! I WOULD!"haha.. one thing I love about animation nowadays is they never stop surprising u.. =D plus dis animation is hilarious as well.. lol.. very creative..unique n original n keeps u wondering who was the genius behind that make it n wrote the script..hahaha....

Never stop stepping out from your comfort zone and explore.. u never knw wad is out there n wad life has to offer if u dun step out for urself..

Never let fear leads u in life.. To live in fear isn't living..it is juz not dying..
Let Hope leads u...never lost hope.. Dun live in the past.. Live in the present n fight for tomorrow.
If u fear that u will fail.. u will forever be a failure..

Never be afraid.. A little fall and stumble will keep u moving forward..

Brain...is always our ultimate tool.. USE it.. unless u dun have one.. LOL..


I know old habits die hard..what keeps u succeed..lived..or survived for many years doesn't mean they will keep u like dat for the years to come.. Adaptation and change is key to excellence n survival in dis world.. =)

Never ask a dog to roll over.. lolol.. coz shit can happen..hahaha.... dun believe me? see 1:41

One thing came across my mind throughout the entire movie was "Love..Hope..Explore..and Discover.. LIVE!"

I also like how they add the little concept of evolution to d animation and also a little twist to it hahaha... since I took anthropology last summer.. gee..it was juz pure joy to see how they played wif it in in d animation.. LOL..
the Croods' character has narrow forehead n big jaw..slightly resembled the transitional ape-lie genus before the homo genus.. n they also sometimes walk on their four limbs..
n the character Guy in d movie has all the feature of a modern human.. xD
those were wad I observed..Hahahaha....
what I have to say about the production of dis animation is juz... PURE AWESOMENESS..GENIUS!


Okay. back to studying. =)
Something big is coming after exams.. WooHoo... Lol...

有时晚上会被自己还没做完的事情吓醒。
看来压力有点过大？？

the infamous potato

so as usual I was having my dinner after planning to stay overnite in d lib today..LOL.. got addicted to staying overnite in d lib.. felt so lonely n boring at home..so y not go study was the first thing that came across my mind in my things-to-do list. Hahahaha....
dun ask me y.. I juz felt so weird for not doing anything these days.. juz wanted to keep myself occupied after the empty feeling of need not to write any paper..lol.

usual dinner..usual place.. but farked up weather.. hahaha...

then there was dis pair of young couple arguing..over potato! Hahahaha....
since I was sitting at the table next to theirs.. wad I knew was.. first they questioned y there was no potato in d soup coz the photo showed potato is supposed to be in there.. then they decided to go ask the boss.. lol.. n the boss said ya.. last year they used to have it but not many customers eat them so they took it out from the soup..
LOL.. what I thought is that it is complete bull.. wad they couldn't say is they wanna save cost.. HAHAHA!
n then I didn't knw what happened after they got the answer frm the boss coz I was too indulged in my food.. I was starving..! Hahaha...

but the next second.. the guy started shouting to that cute lady "SHE SAID LAST YEAR!" ..
zzZ I was like .. waddamice...they still argue over a potato they couldn't get? xD
n then the lady said something like (without increasing her volume) "No..last year we came also dun have"..
n the guy juz kept increasing his volume n said things like "SHE ALREADY SAID LAST YEAR DIDN'T U HEAR DAT JUZ NOW?"

I was like.. zzZ oh man.. u serious?! juz a potato..u need to shout like dat?
felt like telling that jerk.. "dude.. juz chill man.. for fark sake..it's just a baby potato..."
n then they started to quarrel..n bising bising.. n then that lady juz shut her mouth but that jerk still kept shouting annoying stuff.. =.=
n of course.. they ended in what we called for decades since WW2..  THE COLD WAR.. ~~~
what a supposed to be happy ending dinner turned into nuclear warfare.. =.= waddafish..

gee... =.= zzZ I know.. guys.. we have our ego..our pride..watsoever.. u can show ur ego n pride whenever n wherever u want... in the bedroom...in the house...in the club...among the kings.. but please NOT over the dinner table.. especially when u r dining wif the ladies.. =.= u think it is appropriate to argue over the dinner table? somemore coz of a piece of potato.. zzZ
damn.. didn't u learn table manners? First rule: NO shout shout over the table.. hahah..
u can show ur anger when u r annoyed or when u felt u r being wronged.. v show our stand..that is wad guys do..if not we call u sissy.. BUT please not during dinner..or in d public.. n shouting over some stupid shit like a potato..?! man u serious?! how old r u?
Hahahaha... old folks always say "Eating is beyond the heavens".. even the thundergod can't thunderstrike a person if he/she is eating.. LOL.. ya..something like dat.. no wonder we never saw news like people got thunderstruck when they were eating.. we got news like people got thunderstruck on d field..etc. lolol...

ya.. to be honest.. if u really felt annoyed wif her very persistent stupid claim for that potato.. u could juz kept quiet n pulled a long face.. LOL.. but please DON'T SHOUT AT HER IN D PUBLIC.. zzZ wtf..
I knw some of u might say I m not in d right place to say dis.. coz I used to pull a long face at everyone during dinner n shouted at people.. HAHAHAHA.... but ya..that was a few years ago.. lol.. hopefully I alrd learnt some lesson n also learn something from this dude today.. xD no matter how unhappy u r .. juz please dun shout over the table..haha..

it was really awkward u knw sitting beside them.. eating the same dish.. n they were arguing no potato in their soup.. =.=zzZ while I was eating quietly n murmured.."ya... y no potato?' LOL... I guess the boss felt more awkward coz her customer quarrel over her non-famous potato.. HAHAHAHA.....!
I really m curious what would happen if I told them.. "Yo.. mine has potato! y urs dun have?"

so I guess... wif what happened today.. next week when I visit that place again for my dinner.. Will there be any potato in my soup? LOL...

n then I think... does every relationship turned up to be like dat?
hahaha.... guy got tired wif the girl.. u knw.. for sure during their first few dates.. that guy obviously won't behave like a jerk.. LOL.. but after some years.. ya..he started to get annoyed.. I guess what that girl wants was juz to have more conversations wif dat guy.. Hahaha.... of course she is not that stupid to keep that potato topic going on and on.. lol.. (n I didn't mention.. ya..before the potato storm.. they were eating kinda quietly without any lively conversation...lol..n of course the potato was the most lively one..hahah)
I think everyone needs to learn relationship management... not only for spouse or couple.. but also within family members.. friends..n etc.
hahaha....

n seriously dat guy could had juz came up wif a far better solution than shouting like an idiot.. maybe like saying.. "I want to eat some potato too..lets make potato salad tonite.."
Lol.. of course.. the night will turn out better!...hahaha....as the saying goes "the night is still young".. who knows what some good shit he might be getting on the couch..(if u knw what i mean LOL...)
zzZ I didn't mean anything dirty.. being couch potato! Hahaha.... watching movie together or play some video games can be fun too..! HAHAHAHA!! (ya rite...after few posts of urs..we knw wat u meant..ROFL)


hahaha.... never knew having dinner alone can so much insights.. lol...
okie.. off to study.. Library is my first home recently.. xD
I should make a t-shirt that read:
" I LOVE LIBRARY"

Ciao!

of legs and badminton

Spicy hotpot + 2 rice & warm shower after an intense and fun badminton session is FANTABULOUS! LOL... it would be in the heavens if there is beer.. xD

Made three new friends today...2 ladies and a guy..never saw them before in all the badminton sessions.. hahaha.... Y did I decide to mention them in this post out of so many people that I had met? coz one of d girls has LONG SLENDER legs.. *drools* LMAO! WTF..Y DID I SOUND LIKE A PERVERT HERE? HAHAHAHA....n I forgot her name...but I remembered the name of d other two..Oliver and Amy.. zzZ T_T Y did I forget her name.? Maybe coz I got captivated by dat pair of beautiful legs and wasn't actually listening..wtf..u farking pervert! lol... n it was her that asked for the name in the beginning..n yet I didn't remember hers.. hahahaha.... (Nearly applied facial cleanser to my hair juz now trying to recall..xD now u knw y I m facing hair loss problem..lol..)
n I m dead serious about could not recalling her name.. hahahaha.... (u thought I was kidding..weren't u? lol)

after a few sets of match n of course I performed some decent smashes but wasn't very powerful.. (even I was surprised I could smash alrd).. she wanted to switch racquet coz wanna try different types of racquet..  Weird rite? I never met anyone who wanted to switch their racquet wif one that they r not used to.. Lol.. n of course I m more than happy to switch n also warn her that mine is heavier.. hahaha....
I got a lighter racquet. hahaha.... hers is the Nanospeed series frm Yonex n is built for speed.. but its string n grip was modified so it is balance in both speed n power.. my racquet is heavy coz it is built for power only n very slow for wrist action n speed unless u r a professional.. hahahah.... (obviously I m not a professional player)..
y did I bought my racquet n not the Nanospeed one? Duh... coz the Nanospeed is EXPENSIVE..hahaha
n also I secretly wished I m a professional player.. LMAO!

Guess wad.. DAMN.. using her racquet.. I can't even follow my shuttle trajectory once I smashed it..n my reaction time got faster too.. coz it is so light..my wrist action got stronger..it felt like a caged bird got freed.. LOL..my wrist juz liberate so much power n the shuttle went wif the speed of sound.. compared to the shuttle smashed using my racquet (clear trajectory).. Hahahaha.... this is probably due to my long term practising using the heavy racquet.. so it has d advantage when I use a lighter one since my wrist is trained to a heavier weight..lol..
SWEET.. never knew it is that advantageous to play with a heavy racquet.. it juz makes ur wrist stronger.. =D
I was so freaking surprised when I couldn't follow the shuttle after smashing..of coz both thrilled n excited.. This is how it felt to be like Lee CW occasionally.. LOL.. wif every smash that ur opponent can't defend.. u r juz like "FARK YEAH!!"

then after a few unbeatable smashes.. her partner asked her to switch back to hers..zzZ coz they were on the same opponent team..  LOL... gee...
I SHALL GET A LIGHTER RACQUET ONCE I GET BACK TO M'SIA.. xD

I think I mentioned this in my every badminton posts involving meeting some girls.. LOL.. yes..I find girls with beautiful legs who play sports attractive.. HAHAHA.... gee..u r hopeless..u farking pervert..
but one thing I have to admit..lol..girls with long slender beautiful legs are normally tall.. (yes u get wad I mean here..Hahahaha.... I m short..) xD
n most people will say "aiya..height doesn't matter la..it is the height of d soul that matters..coz it is the character of that person whom u gonna live with" .. LOL..ya..u bet.. hahaha...

okay..enuf of all the drooling over beautiful legs... it would juz b ruining my image.. LOL.. (zzZ u alrd ruined it at the beginning of the post) Lolol...

so ya.. I wanted to take in photography as a new hobby..(if u followed my previous post).. photography not as in taking photos of friends gathering..events or watsoever.. it is more like serious photography which involves some serious photographing.. LOL..photos that I can use to enter competitions.. what did I juz say?
ya.. I wanna take some good photographs n perhaps one day.. I can write something from my photos about anything of everything.. lol.. yes..I found out I do like writing too.. not really writing.. but talk crap.. hahaha

gee... I juz found out I start to have liking in many things... including beautiful legs.. xD

ok.. very long post ady..wif nothing of much importance but crap..lol..
n of course.. u guys knw I was juz joking rite about those beautiful legs.. LOLOL.. (yayaya...u r juz "joking"..Hahahaha...)

beautiful day..beautiful life..beautiful legs..

"Roadblock"

Getting sick in ur final year..final term..final week..before two major papers due is like a BIG pain in d ass..
didn't do much of the work for two days..ohmyholymice..
swallow so much Panadol I dunno if my kidney can handle them like how I assumed they could..hahaha...
started to feel a bit fever-ish during last weekends..then ya..I had a fever..haha.. y? I didn't knw.. maybe my body systems protest my constant putting them under pressure n tension..
so one word.. I m WEAK.. not really as strong as I thought I was.. x( tiny bit of stress n I got fever..zzZ

lesson: I won't pressure n stress myself too much frm now on.. papers done on time or not... A+ or not (Got an A+ for the previous essay is more than enuf to prove to myself that I have the potentials haha).. I DUN FARKING GIVE A SHIT ANYMORE. I will juz do it n if can finish them then I m happy enuf..
Dun want to get severe sickness before I graduate...or after I graduate..or before I can even get a taste of wad life has to offer.. hahaha.... Health is certainly more damn important than a piece of degree paper.. so people.. take good care of urself.. =)

After resting for two days.. today I resume my back to library mode... (ya rite..u said u dun want to pressure urself..haha... but still have to do the work rite?)
Hopped on the bus...bus crowded like canned sardine.. then I started to feel dizzy..my vision was blurred I only saw white lights n couldn't see anything in front. eyes felt like high pressured fluid pushing frm inside..sign of insufficient O2 to the brain?.. so I quickly got down at the next stop to get some cooling fresh air before I really collapsed in d bus.. gosh... n indeed felt a bit better.. got on another bus afterwards n headed to library like usual. xD (ya my heart juz never knw when to give up..ain't I haha)

I think the biggest problem with myself is.. I really want to prove not to anyone but to myself (of course there is always that comparing in between) that I have the potential n I really can do something n excel in something..to prove to myself that I m worth of something.. haha.. I never like keep losing to myself.. a bit of improvement on my own progress I would get really happy.. haha.. so I guess in the process of trying to get that little bit of improvement so to be happy..I really tense myself too hard...
n now I realized.. if u pushing urself too hard in the process..it is like forcing a piece of machine to overwork n overproduce..eventually u will break down..then u will be eliminated coz u broke down. Good maintenance is wad keeping a machine work for years..haha..
Breaking through ur limits is not achieved only by pushing urself hard... it has to be done with many more other circumstances like chances..opportunities..help from others...good people u met..good resources n etc..
Success comes with of course hardwork n effort..but u still need the right opportunities to shine...the right resources..the right time..n so on u name it.. hahah...

okay.. enuf crap for today.. one fever let me realize quite a little bit of things.. =)
indeed we all learn slowly through things like dis..

A few roadblocks down the road slow u down..but u will have the time to reflect for a little if u were indeed speeding too fast n ignored ur own n others' safety.. making urself dangerous..unreachable..selfish to others.. then there comes the roadblock..u stopped..paid the fine for speeding.. u learnt ur lesson.. n then u went on full throttle again down the road with the right pace as well as the safety and well-being of others and ur own in ur mind and heart.. a long and exciting journey well ahead till u reach the next roadblock again.. see where u went wrong n u learn..the process goes in cycle.. Part of life =) learning..

(of course..never cheat or bribe at the roadblocks..lol..coz anyhow u will never able to cheat death..when it is time the grim reaper comes knocking at ur window to confirm ur identity..dun be shocked by its large n magnificent sickle..that juz has to be ur final roadblock and ur last fine..price: ur life.. LOL.. hopefully when that time comes..u have much memories n r already happy..satisfied..grateful with ur life that u r willing to give it up.. =D )

ah..life.. always full of the unexpectable and the expectable.. =)

Should I reward myself if I am able to graduate dis June? lol.. I wish I could...
A camera.. a DSLR I mean..Lol. to start developing my newfound hobby... yes..photography.. hahaha...
I like to take photographs of buildings...scenery..n etc.. ya..especially Burst Shots of moving objects n such..LOL..juz love the sound of shutter.. Fascinating... xD
T_T dat camera is like $500.. fml..
aih... better forget it.. unless I won a lottery or lucky draw.. lol.
maybe develop another hobby which requires less money.. Painting? HAHAHAHA.... brush n canvas definitely cost less I m sure.. lolol..

suddenly realized $$$ is freaking so "important"... wif money.. u can travel around the world..go to space..buy new hobbies..fancy cars...n even rocketing ur dead  body to outer space after u r dead. lol.
people always says $$$ cannot buy happiness...yaya...coz those who said it dun have $$$..LOL..
people with billions of dollar said otherwise n prove them wrong.. hahahaha!
u can buy anything (not everything) in dis world wif $$.. except life of course..u can't cheat death wif $$.. but one day it might be possible wif ongoing research trying to extend life to 400 years.. ya those epigenetics crap.. I definitely dun want to live in a world like dat.. wif 400 years rich people n poor people keeps dying.. hahaha.. y did I say only rich people can live till 400 years if those research succeed? coz see... the human genome sequencing was alrd considered a success...but still they can't get it down to $10 per full genome sequenced coz of the technology n shit.. so..only people who r rich may hav access to those crap..hahaha..

see what farking shit I m writing.. should have been working on my two major papers..! lol..
ya..I m still wondering if finish writing those two major papers n getting A+ for them will eventually makes me a billionaire in 50 years time.. hahahaha....

Anyway.. just live ur life.. rich or not.. as long as u r happy n satisfied wif ur life.. nothing else matters.. =)
I m still pretty sure everyone wants to be rich (either by own hardwork or getting famous overnight or by the 1/100000000 chance) lol.. Leave a comment if u opt to be poor.. hahhaha....

Every cloud has a silver lining...silver or no silver..I m happy wif juz rainbows.. x)
(yaya..watever.. I knw it is not a suitable idiom to be in here..LOL..juz a silly quote I came up wif.. perhaps coz of d XL coffee wif four XL proportions of sugar.. crazy rite? haha.. I knw.. I juz keep shortening my life expectancy by inducing myself to get diabetes..)
sugar is the best thing ever created on earth..! of course still second to coffee.. LOLX

Know your limits but never stop trying to exceed them..
I already didn't know where my limits was..
but while I was trying so hard to excel.. I flunked many of them. x(
failure.... zzZ
Need some positivity and a whole new level of determination. haha..

Extension..YEAH!!

prof extended the deadline for d 30 pages report till next week..which of course it will b on d same week as my thesis paper.. great..nw both major papers due on the same final week.. lol... which I haven't start writing any of it yet..coz have been busy wif presentations n presentations.. zzZ

those never ending presentations... 

but ya...shall not leave the writing till last minute.. lol.. 

I juz need to stand for another two weeks.. then I will collapse only after that..hahahaha...who cares about final exams.. HAHAHA.. I never like exams.. I like working on a project.. things that require planning..organizing..n executing.. xD things that take time to perfect them.. haha.. n of coz time is forever a big problem for everyone.. Nw I truly understand.. 24 hours is simply not enuf.. coz i have only 20 since normally d 4 hours I sleep.. LOL

these few days.. while my brain is working frantically to organize ideas..forming sentence structures etc... before every sleep..I juz hav random realization n quotes formed in my brain..HAHAHAHA..... like a sudden quoting of something very random.. 

maybe one day I should ya..compile them all (like someone suggested..LOL) n perhaps publish it if any publisher is kind enough to think they are good quotes.. HAHAHA.. 

but then. I forgot to write them down.. so I didn't remember what came up.. Hahaha....so d next time some random inspiration popped up again..I will quickly write it down..hahaha.... 

maybe some of the quotes will be accused of plagiarism..lol.. I dun care..they r genuinely mine. xD

ok. Ciao! time to continue doing my presentation slides.. lol.. final showdown on Tuesday.. Hooray! then I m done wif presentations for this year. =D felt kinda sad coz I really 'like' presentations after doing almost 5 of them.. hahahhaha.... not a lot..but really enuf for a semester. xD (should had been 6..but I dropped the other course due to time constrain.. HAHAHAHA...n of course it was something stupid about insect excretory system which doesn't spark my enthusiasm at all..lol)

出来混就是会遇到各种形式的人.

especially when that person is a BITCH.. 

OMG.. TOTAL END OF THE WORLD... 

They juz make your world so FARKING DIFFICULT.. 

*sigh... wad to do..No choice.. if it wasn't because of the circumstances... I ALREADY BICTH-SLAPPED that person 1000 times! 

Time to face the real world... outside..there r gonna be more Bitches n Witches. Lol.. 

Be Ready... 

During this point of time..
the USB pendrive is once again more important than my fingers. LOL.

LOL.. was so surprised to see my grade for the biotech essay.. hehehehe... 

now it totally "boast" my confidence to write my thesis paper and my 30 pages report LAST MINUTE.. Lol.. but ya.. still couldn't believe my eyes.. 

Let see wad the prof has to say tomoro.. =D

No doubt.. Last minute work really fits my style.. the King of Procrastination is not merely a title..it is a recognition..HAHAHA... 

last minute work is 40% better than well-prepared work.. (except exams of course..dat was y I never did well in my exams.. T_T ) 

n dat is also the main reason I m resorted to caffeine addiction. xD

Last minute + very sweet coffee = 90% increase in work efficiency.. HAHAHAHA....

I m slowly becoming the next Sherlock Holmes who became a genius after taking drugs.. xD

Hopefully I m only taking caffeine.. lool.. 

(found out caffeine can prevent Parkinson's disease..from a association studies btwn Caffeine n Parkinson prevention hahaha)

Michael.. either ur writing really improves... or the prof marked leniently on d class.. Oopss..syok sendiri again.. Hahaha...

*Happy* 

I dun dare to say now I can speak n write like a pro..but at least it became slightly better.. Thanks to the course. =) 

ya..hopefully my communication skills did improve a bit.. =)

but of course I didn't really write the essay like d day before la.. a lot of research was done before d actual writing plus d stay in library days n nights.. =) but indeed I wrote the conclusion paragraph on the very day it was due.. LOLOL..

Another hard work paid off.. =DDD 

Yippeeyaya.. 

When I think back.. I m left with around 1 month to play badminton in d gym before my access to it expired.. I felt so sad. x( I will REALLY MISS all the people I hav met..those that I had matches with and won..lol. juz joking. but it really feels so good to meet people that share the same favourite sports..where u join them every week..

hahahah... I m really glad I met all these random new people.. the day u first met them..total strangers..then u thick face asked "Can I join u guys?" like asking for their hand to d dance floor..abit afraid they will reject u..LOL.. then slowly..as weeks passed by..everyone became so familiar wif each other..the minute u walked in the gym hall..they waved at u..n we had matches for few hours then we meet again next week..hahahah... sometimes in btwn..new people walked in..then d process starts again.. LOL..n gradually we became a large group of regular customer every Fridays to play badminton..hahaha...
sometimes..those experts will teach u some techniques n skills..which is very good.. haha... free coach. xD
thanks to them.. my smashes improved abit..backhand stroke improved abit..serving improved abit..lol.. but still wif inconsistency..like serving too high Hahahaha....
*sigh..should have started playing badminton like from first year.. wasted the gym facility n tonnes of great opportunities to meet new people.. x( if u asked me after 50 years (maybe less haha) on my deathbed.. what r my greatest regrets.. that would definitely b on d list.. LOL..

Used to hate people that keep smashing (I mean in a pro way..where the shuttle is sharp angled & real pro aim for the sidelines which is very impossible to defend unless u r Luffy frm One Piece where he has elastic arms..lol.. Now I start to walk their path.. Hahaha.... but I use less power..coz I m more for accuracy.. there is compensation btwn power over accuracy.. unless u r Lin Dan.. Hahaha.... OKAY.. I admit my wrist dun have much power.. making d smashes very weak.. today..one person told me.. ur back flick is more powerful than ur forearm stroke.. I was like T_T dafuq.. but also happy la..coz not many people backhand stroke more powerful than forearm stroke.. LOL.. dunno want to be happy or not.. meaning either I m a pro or I m weak.. coz forearm stroke is supposed to be very powerful.. zzZ u won't see players keep using backhand stroke.. Lolol..

got complimented for improved smashes again.. xD ya typical answer "juz got lucky" hahaha... but the truth was.. behind got girls watching... HAHHAHAHAHA.... Ooopps..
won people that I thought is impossible in winning.. but ya it is a doubles match la.. so credits to my pro friend.. hahaha.. *applause*
when they asked for second round..we juz said "nah..lets rest.. we won." lol..
Found out I have low stamina for singles.. LOL.. so sad..aih T_T maybe it is because earlier I played quite long liao.. so that time singles no stamina left.. ya..excuses... hahaha..
defend quite a few smashes today.. hahahaha...hmm.. defense improved.. well I really juz got lucky today.. it is like I m at d spot where the shuttle shot down..so I could hit back lo.. xD y lucky? got a free coffee at Hortons..lol. Come on.. lemme win the $5000 *drool*..
nw I understand y LCW is so into defense.. it is like.. to ur opponent "Nah..ur smashes r weak..see I can defend..Hahaha...IN UR FACE"
the most satisfying one is being able to trick the opponent n then score d point.. LOL..

nw learning how to slice the shuttle.. so it tumbles juz right over the net.. TOTAL IMPOSSIBLE for d opponent  to lift it again.. gosh..the tumbling over of shuttle juz looked like a total pro's work.. hahaha.... u see d disappointment in ur opponent when they rushed to the net n found out it was d work of a pro.. LOL
net kill too.. total exploitation of ur opponent's weakness.. hahaha...

Badminton.. I would call it.. "A game of deception n trickery"..hahaha.... powerful smashes n etc is never enough to win d game if ur opponent is equally good.. u need to fool ur opponent... trolll them.. eg. making them thought u r gonna smash the shuttle but actually u r just giving a dropshot or making them thought u r gonna lift the shuttle but actually u sliced it to make shuttle tumble right over 90 degree down d other side of net Lolol.. the net is there for a reason..

my racquet is abit heavy.. ok..it is heavy for amateur like me.. so I named it "Heavy bitch".. hahaha.... then I found out heavy racquet is for people aiming for very powerful smashes coz it creates the momentum.. =.= that means my wrist action is still nt good enuf to use it yet.. Lol.. it is like a treasure sword that need ur stats to up level first only can equip it.. HAHAHA...
no wonder I played better back in M'sia (pfftt...really bo?) coz my racquets are as light as as d shuttle.. Hahaha....

okay.. enuf of shit liao.. no one is interested in ur badminton day..
go to sleep.. u have tonnes of work waiting for u tomoro..
yippeeyaya


*Found out one of my friends bought two Carlton racquets for $20 each after discout.. original price was $120.. I was like DAFUQ.. I should throw my "Heavy yonex bitch" away.. "Carlton bitch" is lighter than u..*
LOL

hahahaha.... Caffeine.. lots of caffeine really makes me feel happy during this depressing week.. HAAPPPPYYYYY....! YEEEaaahhH!

Google is wonderful.. hahah... coz u can google wad type of drinks contains very high content of caffeine..
dafuq.. y m I behaving like a "drug addict".. lol. took a high dose of caffeine dis morning.. felt so damn excited after 2 hours.. heart pumped like it gonna jump out from d thoracic cavity...left hand started shaking (not the right hand..weird..hahaha).. brain became fully alert.. Hahaha.... on top of d world.. fuq..I m so screwed.. xD
how did I resorted to such caffeine-fueled style of working.. T_T

FMAB

Fullmetal Alchemist has always been my most favorite anime out of so many others that I have watched.. no need to mention how legendary it is..lol..nothing can beat it.. First.. a great storyline..! a storyline that resonate with some historical facts.. perfect ending..very well-made..touching n of course..AWESOME soundtracks hahaha...
there were two versions made.. one in 2003.. n another in 2009.. only a little bit of difference between them..
Didn't get to finish the 2003 one. but I juz finished the 2009 one (Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood) after watching one or two episodes each day due to my very "busy" schedule..lol.. okok..I admit sometimes I watched more than dat.. LOL

The ending was so GOOD..n ya.. a happy n perfect ending.. =)

A quote near the ending:

"A lesson without pain is meaningless.
That's because you cannot gain something without sacrificing something else in return.
But, once you have understood the pain and overcome it,
you will gain a heart that is stronger than everything else.
Yes. A Fullmetal heart."
-Edward Elric, the fullmetal alchemist.

Lol.. I hav always been a fan of good endings.. Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood is a show that definitely strives for perfection. You can look all you want for flaws but you won't find them easily.. lol.. dunnid to mention how good the story is...characters..soundtracks..etc. ahaha... It's juz unique and original.. =D definitely not some "popular" anime (One piece? shit.. Naruto? shitter..lol..Bleach..ughh..SHITTEST) can catch up on..

Okay.. finished a very good anime.. now is time to produce some very good work.. Hahahaha....
Ciao!

S.H.I.T

two weeks didn't update blog.. the views for d previous post was the highest after all these years.. lol.. guess everyone kept checking if I updated? LMAO!! (dafuq..stop syok sendiri.. maybe half of d views was by urself..lol)

so.... I guess some of u are dying to know (OHGAWD please.. zzZ) what I have been doing for d past two weeks..well... I wrote a splendid biotech essay.. gave my Final group presentation for biotech seminar..got a perfect grade for dat presentation.. really thanks n credits to my group members for being superbly awesome n dedicated in preparing it during d reading week break.. gee..how we worked like horses.. LOL... essay+presentation.. our presentation grades for all 3 seminars were amazing..hahaha...
an amazing team is hard to get.. felt kinda sad coz the course is over.. x(

been reading d tonnes n tonnes of articles for my thesis paper in a course about cancer..

Coming out wif an outline for ur thesis paper...essay...or watever shit is always so DAMN DIFFICULT.. coz u juz have too much info to d extent u dunno how to group them or arrange them to make them flow..n the tonnes n tonnes of articles with such tonnes of info.. especially something about cancer.. (somemore d topic is already a pretty focused one..yet u found alot more info on it compared to a more general topic..WTF.. so many specific genes kept popping up)
How dafuq to transform a spiderweb-network-like mass of information into a linear flow of ideas..haha...u really need Einstein to do that..
D worst.. I realized..I m so weak in writing.. T_T

Damn... I need SUGAR.. lol. craving for sugar whenever I feel the stress is pushing down..hahaha

Cancer..Easy to get..Hard to write.. hahahaha....

ya..everyone has cancer cells in their body..since they are abnormal growing cells..meaning those cells that stray from the normal cell cycle n replication... therefore there hav to be cancer cells in our body coz there is no way all of our cells are normal.. mistakes r proned to occur during DNA replication..a double strand break.. a genomic stress..or watever shit.. even a normal human can have their limbs broken by accidents..why not our cells? hahahaha....
but if these abnormal cells are well-regulated then there is no harm..meaning those abnormal cells must go to apoptosis (cell death).. n of course Apoptosis alone is OMFG a different universe guarded by MANY genes.. T_T since it means killing a cell.. murdering is of course a felony.. LOL..ok.. lame joke..
then.. Michael the BOLD.. decided to tap into this universe of "cells mob" where every cells make sure some abnormal freak cells got killed.. at d end Mike got so overwhelmed.. he is now facing SHIT.. xD
Lol.. p53 the guardian of genome.. this number is like a FARKING NIGHTMARE nw.. whenever I saw it came out from d search result.. I have d urge to puke.. Hahahaha...
lets go buy lottery..5353.. see if can win 50 million dollar then retire for good.. HAHAHAHA.... they said d probability of winning a lottery is far less than getting struck by lightning.. Lol.. but I heard there was a person who broke the record of getting thunderstrucked 7 times.. LOL... now u speak about probabilities eh.. xD

Believe wad..I Googled "How does cancer kills people?"
talking about a fourth year undergrad in Biotech.. yet he doesn't how one dies from cancer.. lolol.. dafuq..
hahaha.... coz I read so many articles about what is cancer...n all sort of shit on cancer.. but there is no article on..how cancer causes death.. lol..so I try google.. n there was a very good answer to it.. Hmm...
ok.. I admit.. I m stupid.. lol

forgot to mention I have dis other 30 pages report on Parkinson's... OHGAWD.. I totally haven't tap into it yet.. T_T FML... nw I m having dis.. how to write both thesis paper and 30 pages report together with TWO more presentations.. x( really... FML..
If I survived this month.. I ought to publish a book on.. "How to multitask: strategies to write two epic papers simultaneously along with other shits"

*sigh.. when u r having group members that r not too keen on working on d presentation materials..then u knw.. u r farked for good.. lol.. ya..who can blame them.. it is about cancer.. I spent two days reading.. still..I m not sure if I got everything yet.. T_T

I miss d days where I dun have to worry about unfinished work.. T_T
guess growing up... unfinished work means U R ELIMINATED FROM THE RACE..
no one wants to get eliminated from a life race.. lol..
u can be the last person to cross the finishing line..
but don't be the one who decided to give up...

Jay Chou's latest album is ok..quite good.. hahaha... been replaying the songs for hours... xD


okay.. Ciao!
T_T if I say I m not stress.. I m definitely cheating myself.. lol.. so that I can handle the upcoming stress since I m having none now n I m prepared..
in fact.. I already felt Mt. Everest down to my bones nw.. LOL..
to be honest.. I have no clue how to write a thesis proposal on cancer..to propose an experiment on furthering knowledge on d subject..lol.. I m really not that intelligent to write something like dat.. gee.. T_T

alrite.. Ciao! Good Luck to anyone out there who is having the same shit...
n to those who r only waiting to graduate.. HAVE FUN n ENJOY ur final month of ur student's life.. hahahaha.... coz once u step into d working world.. all shit will come crashing on you..those shit so strong they make a shithole so big dat no matter how u run from this side to d other side..u r still in d same shithole..hahaha....its vastness is enuf for us to stay for another 50 years.. if u r lucky..the shit so much..that the shithole got full so quick then u r lucky to jump out after 20 years.. LOLOL...
shit and shithole theorem.. hahaha....

haha... rested and recharged at home for 2 n a half days... not doing anything at all.. juz slept..ate..watched some movies..laughed a bit.. lol.. not wanting to do nor care about anything...been a complete useless couch potato.. chose to escape frm all d hectic and chaotic mess after d fuq-up midterm on Friday..haha... such nice thing to be a lazy sloth.. gee.. xD complete shut off frm d world...

today.. is the time to bulk up n charge full force forward.. enough rest and recharging.. u had ur sweet time for 2 days ady.. lol.. u still have tonnes of shit to do...ur essay...ur presentation slides..ur 30 pages report..ur thesis paper..ur assignments.. so much things.. n u have less than a week to complete some of them.. ooOOH.. library mode on..12 hours per day till class reopen.. Lol..
T_T such discipline u need to force urself.. especially during a reading week break..n a cold weather + lot of snow outside dat hinder ur mood to go out..lol..

I m having dis wikipedia edit assignment.. which I m so clueless of wad to edit.. coz u see..initially I used dat very particular wiki page to knw n understand d topic.. nw they want me to edit it.. it is like asking me to edit JK Rowling's Harry Potter series on d Quidditch game.. HAHAHA....
Come on.. wikipedia.. dat everyone claims.. is 90.9% accurate n informative.. Lol..

I love the library's two screen PC so much.. coz u can type ur shit on one screen...n hav ur reference stuff on d other one.. 100X more convenient. hahaha..... I m so gonna install another monitor on my PC once I get home next time.. hehehe...

I m nt sure if I m taking things very seriously or very lightly.. sometimes I strained myself too much or mayb I didn't push myself to do anything at all... I juz dunno.. but at d end of d day.. I felt so tired..n then I chose to shut off for a few days...
so I dunno if I m rewarding myself for all the hardwork dat I didn't actually put in at all.. Lol..
but one thing I can be very sure of.. my King of Procrastination attitude juz never change.. LMAO
Procrastinating is like breathing to me.. xD it juz happens without making it happens.. hahaha....

okay.. Ciao! Time to sleep.. need to wake up early later to go to d farking post-office.. zzZ


this song starts to grow inside my brain...hahah...it sticks like a sticky glue..
Bye Bye Bieber.. Justin is back! Hahahaha...

Ciao! =) Have a brilliant week peeps! Hahaha....

the internet was down today in d library.. it was only back at around 5pm..
went to stay in lib straight after lunch..
felt so helpless without internet connection.. LOL. they probably closed it down due to Valentine's..lol.. well.. not very surprising.. it worked.. many people left before the internet was back..lol.. nice trick..very nice.. xD

realized.. when u became too dependent on something but taken it for granted.. then one day when it is gone.. u would know how heavy an impact it has left in ur life.. Hahaha....
modern apes juz cannot live one day without internet...juz like how ancient apes couldn't live a day without their stone tools.. without those..we all feel very uncomfortable..like there is something missing.. xD

ok. time to sleep.. Major exam coming  tmr.. I have or have not prepared well...but I would say..I really put in a lot of effort this time..more than I would normally had..LOL.. okay.. exclude that time when I made a evolutionary tree of all the homo apes.. Hahaha....
I m not always so diligent in something..but when I do..it means some heavy shit is coming.. Hahaha....n yes..REALLY HEAVY SHIT..LIKE VERY HEAVY SHIT...
LIKE ALTHOUGH U HAV THE TEXTBOOK IN FRONT OF U..U PROBABLY STILL WON'T KNOW D ANSWER.. xD
HEAVY SHIT RITE? YES VERY HEAVY..VERY HEAVY..VERY VERY HEAVVVYYYY.. HEAVVEERRYYYY... LOOL... HEAVVEERRRYYYYY...

I am trained to take on any heavy-fuq-up piece of shit since I m 3..lol..n the shit juz get heavier exponentially over the years..
so.. JUZ BRING IT ON! u-piece-of-genomic-junk! Hahaha.....

Overwhelmed by the massive ammount of materials to study..
dafuq.. Genomic transcription..I m so T_T
exam on dis Friday.. prof said exam is gonna be in essay format.. althought it is an open book exam..but everyone knows..obviously the questions won't be any from the notes dat simple..n he stated dat too. so ya..exam gonna be hard I supposed.. even if it is open book..I believe it won't be much time to go through ur notes n then write the answers.. so basically the notes n book are juz gonna be decoration to boast ur morale n confidence that u can do the paper.. LOL
Ahh... STRESS!

the intro to molecular bio course dat u did in ur second year.. after final exam..u automatically deleted it frm ur memory.. n then..it came back to HAUNT u again in ur final year.. wtf.

okay.. continue studying
juz wanna complain a bit n channel my stress out by blogging.. LOL..

p.s. I FUQING HATE ELECTRONIC TEXTBOOK!!! MY EYES GET SO TIRED... T_T

Snake

Happy Chinese New Year!! lol.
No reunion dinner..No firecrackers..Nothing.. juz tonnes of snow.. Spent my new year's eve digesting my 4th year Molecular Bio textbook as my dinner.. hahaha.. so hard to digest till I want to vomit.. xD

Chatted online wif my mom as usual like every weekend.. hahah.... miss her so much.. lol..her CNY is filled wif so many events...to d extent dat I got a bit jealous..hahahaha.. n she is gonna cook for d upcoming dinner wif all my aunties n uncles.. T_T I WANT TO EAT leh.. haha...
never mind.. next year can eat liao.. Can't wait.. LOL.. if I can graduate dis year.. hahah

D public safety in M'sia is so farking BAD!! she almost got robbed n probably killed by two men wif parang.. T_T!! luckily someone saved her! Couldn't  imagine the consequences if no one saved her. T_T gosh..I m worrying sick for her daily traveling.. I m so gonna learn karate..taekwando..n ninja skills.. damn...need to protect the people u love in a country like dat.. wtf..wherever u go..u might get robbed or killed.. news like dat juz happens everyday now.. Come on! wad are the police doing?!?!! citizens hav to protect themselves wherever they go.. carry whatever dat is legal to protect urself.. gosh..

Okay. gotta sleep nw.. hav to wake up at 7am later for volunteering.. hahah.... I juz never change ain't I? xD either I sleep early n wake up at 4 or I sleep late like dis n wake up early.. but they are all juz sleep 3 to 4 hours basically..haha..
New year.. hav to change dis habit..so my biological clock won't mess up.. getting old.. can't afford to sleep dat little.. xD

Ok people.. Happy New Year! Wish u all the best of everything in d year of snake! stay happy...most importantly..stay safe.. =)

of random and randomer...

it's good to have something u look forward to every week.. for me..it is the badminton session evry friday..dats basically wad keeps me "alive".. lol..
library is like my second home if I m in school..  after class..library.. after lunch..library.. before dinner..library.. if they have beds in library.. I would probably sleep in for d night.. HAHAH...
y u no go home? basically there is nothing at home u see..LOL.. how come I make it sounds like so pathetic.. hahaha... library.. y u no install beds?!

CNY coming up... Next year..can finally celebrate it wif family..

so tired of all d presentations.. I used to be shit-in-my-pants nervous when I heard d word "presentation".. now.. "Yeah! Hooray..! but fuq..not againnn..I juz had one last week"..after overcoming d fear n shit.. became kinda addicted to presenting n excited when mine is coming up... but not when something not of my interest..like INSECT PHYSIO.. Hahaha.... I juz dun get the kind of enthusiasm wif insect like how I had it in mushrooms.. dats y u dun see me blog any shit about insects..(except now.lol.) n for it..I gave up (dropped) d course.. felt kinda sad..but nah.. enough shit is enough.. hahahaha... all d malpighian tubules n compound eyes shit.. boorrringgg..zzZ
I never like dropping any courses dat I hav taken coz giving up easily is juz not my style.. xD (although I like procrastinating..hahah..).... except dis insect n a philosophy course coz both r juz stupid.. wad is d use of knowing how cockroach urinate n how to analyse a symbolic sentence?..hahaha. although knowing how cockroach urinate can come up as an interesting conversation topic dat will leave people be both mesmerized n thinking u r a nerd. HAHA

Once borrowed a book about fighting fear.. but left it on d shelf untouched n then returned it.. maybe was too afraid to know my own fear n too ignorant to want to overcome them..lol. I dunno y I did that..maybe due to no time to read it..(always first class excuse..haha).. not a sci fi book perhaps..etc.
but knowing ur fear n learn to overcome them is always a good thing.. haha.

saw some frens posted a photo of a book they bought. "How to read a book".. lol. Really?! but I would like to read it..to read how I read it..LOL. dat would be interesting.
ah...when was d last time I read a book leisurely? haha... best hobby on earth..reading.

saw this quote dat people shared in fb. "Doing what u like is freedom..Liking what u do is happiness"..
wad do u think? is it a good quote? hahaha.....

Okay.. can't think of wad to write anymore..maybe there are more..but I prefer not to write it here..HAHAHA... dis post is like completely random..n juz to waste my time n escape frm studying some shit on genomic transcription regulation n crap...
oh..Mendel..Y U FOUND GENETIC?! hahaha....although Genetics doesn't has anything to do wif molecular bio..well ok.. it has.. but I juz couldn't think of anyone who call themselves father of molecular bio (okay after googled.. it is Linus Pauling who discovered sickle cell anemia) LOL..so Mendel..u r d first one dat came into my mind to blame..HAHAHA..
y u have so much free time to experiment on peas..? y u no choose something harder than peas..like apples..to observe the traits..?! y?! y?! y?! x1000.. hahaha... if u didn't do all that.. who d fuq will go plant peas n then found genetics.. Lolol..

alrite.. enough crap.. Time to start studying...then..outline for essay..presentation..literature for written report on Parkinson's..outline for thesis project..essay draft..assignments.. oh fuq..the list goes on FOREVER.. Study week break will be d most FAQTASTIC week ever! Lol.. xD Can't wait..

Operation 4 hours..
Day 1: 11pm-3am. *SUCCEED*

lol. although dis operation has been going on for a long time... but today is d official first day of operation.. hopefully Op 4 hours can last till d term ends. hehehe....

Fuq.. get back to work!

l...i...b..r..a..r..y..

Couldn't recall when was the last time I updated my blog in d library..
There are normally down to only two reasons when I did that..
First... I was not at home..
Second.. I was in d library..
lol.. wad crap..

It could only mean one shit when I blog in lib..which is: I m FREAKING FED UP WIF WAD I M DOING RITE NOW... n I wanted to find some time off from it..it was driving me INSANE!!!

u see.. when u spent WHOLE DAY in d lib searching for research journals....reviews....articles...basically all scientific craps on a TOPIC dat u r not even confirmed if it would be ur final thesis proposal... could be so FARKING DAUNTING!!
All my brain juice are being drained out like a lemon being squeezed out of its life.. lol..at least u still get lemon juice for a lemon... u get some outcome versus effort shit..
my outcome...ZERO..
n d first assignment of picking papers for this shit is due tmr.. I started finding journals on Tuesday.. TOOK ME FOREVER...HAPPILY EVER AFTER.. ha...

My brain is juz not fit for shit like dis... academic writing..zzZ intelligent writing...research writing...etc..

I hope miracle happens... dat I will dream of a good topic when I m sleeping tonite... haha...

Went for a cup of coffee juz nw juz to get myself off the comp coz I saw stars n my head starts to hurt..
sat there...phased out...while looking at people eating their dinner happily without even need to worry wad thesis proposal is..LOL...
There r times in ur life.. when u suddenly felt.. Y m I doing dis? Wad m I doing? When is dis going to end?
n those r d times dat I need coffee...
some people chose nicotine...
n some befriended ethanol..
some goes to cocaine..
but nah.. I stay wif caffeine.. LOL.
coz caffeine is cheap n it is legal.. Hahaha...

hope my caffeine consumption doesn't goes up exponentially wif my increasing age... coz they said the older u get..the more stress u will have.. n i think it is very true.. hahaha.... Reality can be a very BIG pain in d ass.

I dun always drink coffee.. but when I get one..dat means heavy shit is coming.. xD

Saw some friends frm badminton session today during lunch.. One of them told me his racquet broke last Friday when he smashed..
DAFUQ..Did u smash d rock? hahaha... how could I hav missed such epic moment?! LOL

Seminar presentation on Insect physio is up next week.. saw some presentations dis week..quite good..n I found it is very different frm Biotech seminar.. For Physio.. u have to do it in really SCIENTIFIC way..u hav to explain all d results in d papers...blah blah blah...n blah blah blah... n I still dun get wad is d use of experimenting on stick insect's locomotion...since we humans hav two legs..it sure doesn't help in health medic application... so do v develop some kind of aid for d stick insect in case one of their legs broke off?
n does other insects' locomotion d same as d stick insect? if not..then y stick insect? Hahaha...

hope I can do well.. lol.. hope my voice doesn't tremble..my hand doesn't shake..n people don't giv me dat look like dey don't understand a shit when I present..hahaha...it really gets on my nerves..

D person beside me nw is typing on his keyboard so hard like d more stimulus he gave to d keyboard..d better his essay writing would be.. n it is VERY annoying..
Can I slap him on d face? Hahahaha.....


Okay.. Ciao! Back to real life.. Escaping is never a brilliant choice..
u must still Face it..Take it..Solve it.. n then Forget it! hahaha....

Hope everyone is having a hard time like me...lol.. it does make me feel better to be honest.. xD HAHAHA.. coz it means v r living in d same world.. n I m not in some shithole or such.. LOL

有点沮丧。可能是压力引起吧。

得找时间松解一下。哈。。。

又是一个偷懒的借口。

一个星期没玩，总觉得哪里不自在。LOL.

无意间察觉，农历新年前的那个礼拜，我有两个term tests & one assig due. Both midterms r 4th year courses..n I still don't get what the hell the class is teaching till nw.. lol

我真的真的完了。。。
真想买鞭炮把自己炸碎。 哈哈
每当打开日历本看下个礼拜有什么，我就想吐。哈哈。
日子过得太快了！唯一没变的就是due dates. 好像计时炸弹这样。。慢慢逼近。lol.

唉。加油加油！
time to execute Operation sleep 3 hours..stay in lib half day routine.. hahaha..
Room back to hotel mode.. only come back sleep nia.. LOL

dis week weather cold like shit... even Polar Bear will shiver in dis cold ass winter..

无言

有些人的脸皮真的是够厚。
不见人影三个星期。。
回到家。。第一个就是再跟你借smartphone charger..
我哪敢再借你？！ 每天都跟我借这借那。。你如果再不见那么久。。那我不是麻烦。
what the fish.. I lent it to u when u first moved in because u said u left it at ur old place.. then now.. u should have it back alrd after so long..
不借还给我脸色看。=.= 靠！If I were my oldself..u will stay in Credit Valley hospital for d next 3 weeks..
唉。。 好人真是难当。
蛮想当回那种无人敢靠近的坏人。。 哈哈。
真的不喜欢当好人。zzZ

借charger也算了。。 还胆敢要跟我借bus pass.. WHAT THE FISH.. 我不如给你我的student card好了！
无言。。。

I really hate people kept knocking at my door because of shit like dis.. especially when I wanted to rest.. Really wanted to shout.. "FARK OFF!" then kicked him down d stairs.. 但就是不知为什么做不出。如果还是坏人，我应该会毫不犹豫就做了。还会再下楼给他几拳。哈哈. 一个字, 爽！
我的门不是一直给你敲的！CELAKA...

这个现实社会有时会把人变成无情不是没原因的。。就是因为有这种人。

went to lunch wif friends..had a great time...came back happily.. 遇到这种 anak-pantai (translate urself lol).. 真是倒霉。

u sure will say after reading dis.. wad d fish...michael so selfish.. juz lend him la..

haha... 你真的是不懂那种心情。。就是。。好心借东西给人怕他会麻烦，然后过了几天不还！还要你亲自低声下气开口把东西要回！
感觉好像东西是他的，你应该作践自己。zzZZzz..
我就是最不喜欢这种感觉。

n I m glad.. because after all these shit.. I still have not react VIOLENTLY.. Hahaha... maybe d one that should be glad is him..
once again.. my 忍功又受到考验。 of course.. it had failed again last summer... lol.. but ya.. still I managed to not hurt anyone physically yet.. xD

我非圣贤，也没什么佛心。
但请不要再度把我的恶魔面激发出来，它已经沉默蛮久了。哈哈。 相信有亲眼看到或感受过的人，因该十分有感触。
LOLOL!!
n of course.. I would like to take d chance here..to sincerely apologize to those who became "victims" of my "rage" either recently or in d past.. x) I m deeply sorry.. haha.

ya..enuf of all these.. time to start studying... term test coming next week.. =.= .. more presentations.. n more ass due..

I should perhaps.. write on a sticky note wif marker pen.. "FARK OFF! I BITE!" n stick it to my door.. so I can have a peace of mind when studying or rushing my assignments.. all the stress n shit.. I really want to keep my sanity at bay.. lol.

Yonex with Tai-Chi

400th post! =D forgot when I started dis blog which only contains normal..boring..not fascinating stories of my very humble life..HAHAHA.. anyway finally..with much supports from all the fans around the globe..it finally reached its 400th LOL.. n dun expect me to thank u all..coz I did it all by my own.. HAHA...

so as always.. Fridays..  the only day of the very celaka-week dat I look forward to.. coz I get to play my fav sport (u should knw wad is it alrd).. haha...
n wif the help of my new SUPER-YONEX.. I finally had my sweet time in giving some people hard time today.. ooohhlala.. sweet revenge.. Hahaha....  smashes until ur pants drop.. xD
there was dis guy.. quite good in playing.. we had a rally.. n I actually blocked almost all of his smashes today..well..lucky.. n I did give him some hard times too.. lol.. n after around 30 minutes.. he said he is tired..n called for rest.. zzZ dafuq.. 30 minutes..juz warm up leh.. =.= some people juz so kiasu..haha
yeah.. get used to my Yonex liao.. hehehe..... NINJA!!
if cannot bring back to Msia.. or if it broke in the luggage.. I will be so damn sad.. x(
I actually played more sports and exercises here compared to my time in M'sia.. HAHAHA.... every week..regardless if it is raining..snowing..thunderstorm or hurricane..lol coz I realized to have a healthy mind u need to have a healthy body first.. n of course my mind is not dat healthy at all..u can even call it dirty too..haha..

then of course.. after all the hardcore Olympic style session.. was asked to join dis group of ladies in having rally coz they were missing one player for doubles.. LOL... n before dat.. they very cautiously warned me.. they dun play dat hard.. so I performed Tai-Chi lor for the next one hour and a half.. hahaha.... zero muscle usage..n no sweat.. haha...
but ya to be truthful.. they are quite pretty.. even if they didn't warn me I would still use Tai-Chi also..lol (n please dun call me hamsap.. HAHAHA)
haha.. life is good.

after the Tai-Chi performance.. played another hour wif some friends..haha... n they said "Damn..u improved!".. although I said "Really? thanks".. I was "meh..after almost 1+1/2 hour of Tai-Chi..wad u expect.." hahaha....

I dun normally remember names when people I juz met introduced themselves.. Hahaha.... same thing even if u r a pretty lady telling me ur name.. at the end.. the only thing dat I remembered is I told u my name.. lol..
I knw dis is very bad n unkind.. coz after dat..when people said "Hi Michael!" the only thing I replied is "HI! How's ur day".. lame....
gosh.. but I really couldn't remember names.. although people did remember mine after first introduction..lol.
although if u told me ur name again d second time we met.. 50% of d chance is I will remember it..but still..half of the chance is I won't.. xD damn now I sound like an arrogant bastard.. hahaha....
but there are times dat I would probably remember ur name.. is dat when there were people dat I already knew asked u ur name and I "accidentally" heard it..
okay..now I sound like a stalker.. LMAO!!

After all the Tai-chi performance for almost half of the session.. I felt like I didn't exercise at all.. so I went to jog 2.5 miles..lift some weights..did 3 THREE! chin ups (I could do only once last time..Haha..really "menyiasuikan")..n 3x10 on d sit-up gear.. well... at d end.. I went to eat ALOT..plus 2 McD burgers at 9pm..
hahaha... now all that healthy lifestyle I juz called is total BULLSHIT.. 9pm u ate two bowls of rice n two burgers is FARKING ridiculously unhealthy no matter how it sounds.. xD haha... well..I juz wanted to stay fit..not muscle building coz my very humble face doesn't fit bulky frame n I know it..Hahaha....it will only makes me look shorter for the fact that I m already shorter than short.. hahah...

so if next time u ask.. "How come u eat so much but still didn't get fat..?" I will surely reply u.. "I believe there are worms in my stomach..dey absorb wad I ate.." Lol..coz I really couldn't understand y.. it still remains a mystery even for myself.. HAHAH... maybe my metabolic rate is higher than normal human..since I m short.. the surface-to-volume ratio is high.. okay crap.. LOL..

CIAO! Have a nice weekend folks..
fml.. starting next week... all the months would be fully EXCITING like FARKING EXCITING... coz I will have two to three shit due almost every week..not forgetting term tests too.. ooOOOH.. if I dun go for sports or at least smash some balls.. it would be hard to keep my own sanity.. xD LOL...

Work hard..play hard.. DIE HARD!

was reading this book called "Bad Science" by Ben Goldacre.. In one of d chapters d author mentioned about d emails he received frm children ecstatic with delight at d stupidity of their teachers, one of d emails was: I'd like to submit to Bad Science my teacher who gave us a handout which says that "Water is best absorbed by the body when provided in frequent small amounts". What I want to know is this. If I drink too much in one go, will it leak out of my arsehold instead?

lol..n I couldn't stop laughing after reading that... xD

ya... industry of pseudoscience... haha.. laughable but it is very destructive..

This book "Bad Science" is mind-blowing n really good one to read if u have some free time on ur hands.. =) Glad it is one of my course textbooks..lol.. If it weren't for d course..I wouldn't have came across such great book.. after halfway through it...it already changed my view on certain things..

too bad have to rush to finish it before Thursday coz dis in-class assignment.. x( n I dun have tmr to continue reading.. lol.. have to finish it by morning.. 150 more pages to go.. hahaha.... but I will re-read it next time when I m totally free..with this sweet nice evening of coffee n books.. lol.

One does not normally finish a 237 pages book in one night... unless one has super power...or has juz finished a 400g M&M peanut chocolate while reading.. HAHAHA...
I m sure I do not have super power..but I m farking sure I will have diabetes before 60.. xD

Ciao! *continue reading... T_T eyes feel heavy... tomoro has to work on presentation slides.. x(
Assignments...seminars...presentation...term tests..due dates are all over the calendar... every week I have this something due... fml.
Who says final year is a relaxing year.. I will show him TWO middle fingers! o0o  o0o LOL.

广结善缘

助人为快乐之本

have been added to my list of principles..hahaha.. 

Felt so great and happy today... if u ask me why..I do not know the reasons.. I can only tell what happened today dat made me feel dat way..hahaha....

woke up in the morning..feeling all hyped up..n refreshed..perhaps due to d enough sleep dat I got..lol.. 10 hours.. n i have a midterm next tuesday.. fml.. 

then went to dis 4th year Bio class...which is 5 hours long..wif an hour break in btwn..n the prof sounds like a nice person =) but d most important factor is dat I knew more or less 1/3 of d class...those dat were in d same labs wif me in previous years.. or taken d same course wif me.. or those in d same seminar course.. or in d same presentation group..etc.. =D n my TA for microbiology lab last year is taking dis course too.. LOL..

n then went to d gym for BADMINTON session.. played 4 hours.. 5-9pm. zzZ but ya in d middle was a long bench waiting.. haha... coz once u stopped playing n went to rest on d bench..u won't get to play for quite a long time..coz today the court was full..n the bench was full.. zzZ but d female ratio increased..lolol.. we were all happy..coz at last we dunnid  to watch so many "Olympic" style playing anymore..at least their presence spices up things for a bit..haha..  n almost all of them looked stunning too.. xD HAHAHA.... quite unbelievable rite.. lol.. 

Met those who came to play last term n became acquainted with.. Chatted wif them for quite long..haha... some of them were in their fourth year too..n the topics we talked about was ya future plans.. the touched feeling u have coz u know after 3 months.. we won't be able to have a match together again.. *sigh.. 

it is amazing how the people whom u only meet once per week..could move u dis much.. hahaaha.... maybe it's only me.. xD

while waiting for d bus wif 2 friends after gym.. n they are final year chemical engineering students at d downtown campus but stay at the place nearby.. n they dun freaking know there is shuttle bus to the downtown campus from UTM.. LOL.. I was like REALLY?! U DUN KNOW DIS? U SPENT $$ ON SUBWAY FOR 3 YEARS already? HAHAHA..... gee.. now they know dat.. at least for d next three months.. they can save some $$.. lol.. they looked very shocked when they found out there is free shuttle bus..LOL

while sitting at d bus stop.. there is dis pair of couple..lol.. n d guy asked us whether we have change for $20 coz he lost his bus pass n was $1 short for d bus fare.. n of course we all don't have..who have small change for $20?! hahaha.... so..well. I gav him d $1..coz I saw they were both unhappy since ya..dis would be a problem if they couldn't board d bus.. n they looked like dey were going for a date.. LOL.. dun want them to spent their night quarreling for he lost his bus pass n d $1.. hahahaha..... 

it is a good evening... dun spoil it due to a small case like dat.. xD

if u want to buy a badminton racquet.. Do buy Yonex..LOL.. regardless whether u r only beginning to play badminton..or juz playing it for fun.. juz buy Yonex..good racquet for d long run..it makes a difference.. HAHAHA..... my smash went smooth today after I found d right sweet spot to hit the shuttlecock..LOL.. (dis juz sound so wrong..hahaha)

I was told by a good fren not long ago dat I m an open person.. dat was d first time I heard dat.. xD I do consider myself as an introvert..LOL... well..maybe dats true.. I somehow do not find any difficulties n in some cases enjoy speaking to n being around wif people whom I don't know dat well of or even strangers..provided I m in a good mood at dat moment hahahah...Hmm.. i believe most people can do dat.. so dat still doesn't make me an open person rite..lol... so things narrow down to dis.. I do like to let people know wad I m interested in.... zzZ hahahah...

ok so dats basically wad happened recently.. lol.. 

Have a nice weekend folks.. =) 

Here comes the time when d USB pendrive is more important than anything else.. LOL..

Time to start doing my work for presentation.. classes starting soon.. Ahhh...fark..don't feel like doing things at all.. gee...have to do research..slides..preparation on wad to say..n shit like dat.. lol.
Been slacking...lazy..sleeping-whole-day in these past two weeks.. now suddenly have to bulk up n start doing shit makes me feel like shit all over.. hahaha....

Biological clock all messed up...slept kinda early at 12am..woke up automatically at 4am ..expected.. then slept back at 8am..woke up at 5pm.. WTF IS WRONG WIF ME?!
see.. I spent my life sleeping again.. HAHAHAHA...
have to farking tune back...classes starting soon.. fml..

Hate snowing n shit.. = = hate to go out..those slippery icy road...those dirty snowy watery mushy farking dirt shit..dat is there trying so hard to make u fall on ur face... damn..I miss sunshine.. hahaha...all these cool wind n weather makes my bone all crumbling inside.. felt like they dun have enuf calcium zzZ

Wanted to go gym.. but when the picture of need to change all  the heavy jacket n layers of clothing to sport attire makes me dizzy.. HAHAHA.... n of course my lazy ass tell me to stay home.. lol.. another reason is no badminton session doesn't motivate me.. xD

okay.. enough of all d complaining.. hahahaha....
Have a nice short break before classes start again people..
gosh..y holidays is always so short..lol...although I felt it is long enough already.. not being busy makes me feel kinda bad.. yes I know it kinda contradict but ya..I do feel like dat.. xD