Think I still can't stop from writing something on blog although no one bother to read... lol..

4am in the morning... let me tell you normally what u will feel at this time of the night..

First thing first.. u feeeel damn kanasai hungry...

second... your ears expand.. and u can listen to all the silentness in the house..

third.. ur brain starts to clean itself and u feel very alert.. (well..for me..)

u feel all kinds.. happy...peace..at ease...lonely... etc..

very last thing that u won't feel.. is Sleepiness... LoL...wtf

normally sleepiness creep in only after the sun rise.. xD

so.. yup.. it is new year again.. today .. last day of year 2010.. and it felt like the last time I wished someone Happy New Year 2010 was like...yesterday? hahahaha... "time flies" (147 times I said this..) so.. just tell me...how more longer will we all be on earth? another 30 years? 40 years? lol... that too if u are lucky.. xD and the earth doesn't explode on its own.. = = Hooyah! Supernova..

2012.. this number used to be a huge discussion... but now...it kinda cooled down... guess all the people realized it doesn't really matter..doesn't it?

4am now... and it is 4 degree Celsius outside with light rain showers.. and I m still awake..reading.. yayaya...finally a day where I spent reading.. xD

New Year's Resolution? Hmm... mine is 1200 x 800? lol...saw this from someone in facebook.. Very creative I should say.. xD

Saw Polar Bears in Toronto Zoo yesterday... they are not as white as u thought... hahahaha..... and it is kinda sad to see.. even the ice in the zoo is melting away...so..what u can tell for the ice in the North pole? Wonder what will these polar bears tell their polar friends after they get back to their home... lol...

We keep animals in cage at the zoo and we pay just to see them... ever wonder... actually we are the ones that are keeping ourselves in our own comfort zone.. why don't we go to the harsh weather of Africa to see the lions... the brutal cold of North pole to see the Polar bears? lol... everywhere we travel.. we seek for places that we are comfortable of... place with shelters...with food...and of course with shopping... = = hahahaha

DJ Earworm's United States of Pop 2010 mashed up is just way too awesome... sum of all songs in 2010.. how nice.. =)

Ok.. that is all I guess... lol...

Cheers to all fellow nerds that always online facebooking...drama-ing.. lol...

Happy New Year 2011 to all of you... and.. HAVE A GREAT YEAR just like how u had it in 2010..(if u had a great one in 2010..LOL).. if u had not give urself a great year... then make your 2011 an unforgettable one (in a good way) ... LOL

CIAO!!

It is time to forsake Blogging...

to forsake Facebook..

Forsake PPStream.. lol...

To forsake all time wasting shit..

coz.. Now.. I HAVE MY PIANO KEYBOARD...!!!!

LoL...

It is more meaningful wasting time on playing songs than doing all those shit that I will be forsaking..

HOORAY..!!! lol...

Maybe this is the last time u will see me updating my blog.. =)

and facebook as well..

so.. SO LONG FOLKS.. xD

till the day u see me update again.. =D

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! =D

Beneath the silver moon,

I m standing in the street,

watching the snow falls...

Beyond the silver moon,

I saw a cloud with silver lining,

but there is no sun shining at the edge,

Should I be on cloud nine?

But the silver moon,

so far away,

so out at space,

only the silver moon sees me...

=)

Suddenly thought of writing these words down..making sentence that has no sense...maybe there are some sense in it... just like what I feel now... =D

nice night with friends...nice snow...nice lights...nice snowy roads...

everything is nice....when it snows..

all the darkness engulfed by the innocent white.. =)

what seems far is sometimes near to get...

but what's near within reach is always the furthest...

We can close our eyes to the things we don't want to see... but we can't close our heart to the things we don't want to feel...

You have to have a darkness.. for the dawn to come.. -Harrison Ford.

The only true wisdom is in knowing u know nothing.. - Socrates.

Feeling sucks... really bad mood... damn....

so helpless inside...

like floating at the middle of Caribbean sea..

with no lands seen at the horizon...

no lighthouse giving beams of hope...

my compass doesn't point North..

am floating.. waiting to sink..

though the night skies are beautiful...

crescent moon and bright stars at these winter nights..

cold chilling winds caressing my face..

but these perfections looks far..very far..

coz I am at the middle of Caribbean sea..

praying upon the stars that I will not drown..

keep cheating myself that everything will be fine...

Can I once ... just once be honest to myself?

I always believe strongly in myself... but now... I just feel sucks... really sucks...

After Monday and Tuesday.. even the calendar spells W T F !!

lol.. saw this somewhere... found it funny.. =D

but hold on.. didn't they forget

the double S --> Super Shit after the weekdays?

The day when it snows...

When was my last update on facebook status? my last update in blogpost?

lol.... no one cares.. u live like an invisible person on the planet called Earth..

You'll Never Walk Alone.. lol.. my ass.. that is for Liverpool fans..

If u were to ask me what is the sweetest thing?

My answer is..

PILLOWS!! and EARPLUGS!

Arhh... THEY ARE HEAVENS!!

Any inventions on earth is great... but..pillows and heavens are greater..!!

know why?

coz.. ya.. I haven't been sleeping for two days.. 48 hours... keep working on formal lab reports with earplugs.. still having one coming up on Monday... xD

but I m so gonna sleep now! no one .. and nothing can stop me!! but hold on.. there is... shhH.. lol...

by the way... I almost forgot what is the filament of a light bulb made up of..!!!

Hmm...ya.. it starts with T....

Ya! TUNGSTEN!!

lol... screw.. and there goes my chemistry discussion with prof...

lol.... imagine..discussion about nothing else but about the lab that u got the lowest mark in.. what a lucky draw...! lol.... FARK!

I dun need lady luck to be on my side... I just need A LOT of ladies luck!! LOL

2am in the morning...

Laughters ...

Lots of things happening... pumping fast...

in a swift of time...

Mixed feelings..

too much chocolate cakes? lol...

without noticing...

time fly pass like a bullet...

and we feeling so fly like a G6..

Google Chrome lagging...

Laptop lagging..

u too lagging...

Catalase..enzyme...nickel...acid..base....etc..

all coming in... knocking at the windows of brain..

cramming in... rushing..

Boom Boom Pow..

here it comes 3am..

hungry again...

big dull sun rising at 7...

small fiery ball setting at 5...

when is it going to snow..?

Microsoft Excel...and Words..

all night long...

we lost the sense of writing...

with ballpen..

A drink with friends..

gather around...

Oh..those times...

where everything is so fine...

like the white sand at seaside...

Slowly losing the touch of

black and white keys..

the one with alphabets and numbers.

makes numb fingers ...

with electrostatic..

Quiet hallway...

stiff cool air floating...

ghastly bathroom lights..

Smell of pillows lingering..

front of the LCD screen..

I know..

a cool Sunday morning it is going to be...

with no birds chirping..

only the sound of engines..

at a distance ...

=)

=)

x)

X__X

O__O

xD

=D

LoL... what m I supposed to feel? what m I supposed to write?

but one thing... THANK YOU! (u will know why I said this if u are my friend..) hahahaha

Finally learnt my lessons...

Hmm...

ya.. a hell tough week for me...

Deep anxiety for two days...

finally... I got sleep without anxiety yesterday...

haha... u won't understand that kind of feeling...

u will feel like u gonna die... xD

Diazepam sounds like a good drug to take... lol....

think that.. "Aal Izz Well" .. does make some differences.. haha...

Suddenly downloaded all Jay Chou's old albums... from the one in year 2000 to 2010... he is a darn good musician.. at least... I can hear creativity varies among all the albums... love his music..

Found that... I need a quiet .. a very quiet place for study... definitely not with earphones plugged in... I want complete silence...

not the library... definitely not our house... Hmm.. so far can't think of a good place...

the house is silent at 3 in the morning.. but it will only last for 2 hours...

really wish I can go to the moon and read my book.... lol...wtf..

with life so fast..hectic till are not aware of what is happening.... I forgot meditation...

coming back to that.... ya.. Peace!

Ok.. Ciao..! may stop blogging and facebook for some days... maybe some months...

coz... I found no more interest in them anymore... in fact.. the last update for my facebook status is 5 days ago... I hope one day..I can see... last updated... 5 years ago... LOL....

Cheers! Wish everyone has a good November... 2010 going to end... how fast is that...? nah..it is not fast... just only... we are SLOW.. x)

We used to feel that 1 hour is long... that is when we are 10 years old..

when u are 20.. u feel that 1 hour is short...and 1 month is somehow long...

when u are 30.. u feel that 1 month is short and 1 year is still long..

when u are 40.. u feel that 1 month is short.. and 1 year is short..

when u are 50.. u feel that time doesn't matter anymore..

when u are 60.. u feel that LIFE IS SHORT...

if and only if... u can live that long...

xD

I have to post this... lol...

Just watched an AWESOME till Max movie.. named "3 Idiots"!

it is a hindi movie... I watched many hindi movies.. but this one is totally different... it makes u laugh..cry...touched...all in the same time... rare hindi movies are as funny as this.. LOL

many epic bollywood movies..u watched and u will remembered the movie.. but this one... u watched.. u not only will remember it.. but u will enjoy every bit of it.. immerse in the movie and will not get bored if u keep watching..

it is pure comedy and touching and educational movie.. Epic..

the friendship inside is so BEAUTIFUL!! perfect friendship.. so touched... haha

and the message conveyed is so good.... educational .. yeap.. inspiring.. yeap... teach u how to be more human..yeap...

to be honest.. first when i saw the title.. I was not at all attracted to it... but after u started watching.. u will not want to stop it.. it explained how AWESOMENESS IT IS!!

the soundtrack fits so well! ...

Aal Izz Well!! it goes like that...

"when life goes out of control. draw back your lips. whistle and exclaim "Aal Izz Well!!""

Confusion prevails. Nobody knows the solution. when a solution is found. we lost track of "what was the question" .

ya.. those were part of the lyrics.. good song.. =D

why did I say it is educational...

it teaches u.. Do only what that u have passion in.. coz if not.. u will regret for ur whole life..

ya.. Passion does really matter! =)

and dun be fear of the future... coz...no one knows what the future will be! so just ya.. be yourself! =D

so.. Be honest to yourself! Know what u really wants.. and Be yourself! =)

Ahh.. what a wonderful night with a not only good but EPIC movie! =) Life is not that bad... Do not stress yourself... coz it is not the knowledge that u put into ur brain..it is stress that u put in..

forgot to tell u guys.. the movie is about three university students... so perfect for students to watch it.. =D

Most of the time...

we dun have to be worry... unhappy... sad.... angry... frustrated... stress.. (any negative feelings u can think of..) over any shit...

coz u know what... LIFE IS JUST TOO SHORT! lol.... if u r lucky...maybe u will live for 50 years...60 years... 70 years... if only u can live that long.... hahaha

No matter how ur future turn out to be...no matter how bad is ur present state... no matter how ur past affected u... why the fark do u have to be grieved over such shit... lol.... coz again life is too short.. do u want to spend the whole farking time to not get over them?

Just get over... live ur life.. days by days... months by months... years by years... the clock ticks...

in the end... tell me.... does anything matters? hahahaha......

In the end.... no matter how many great things u done... no matter how many shit u failed... no matter how successful u r... how famous u r... how great ur life is... In the end....in the end... what is left? lol.... u lose everything....

so... people.. hahaha..... dun get too triumphed over success... neither too grieved over failure...nor too frustrated over demands...

if u think it all over again..

ya.. in the end....it doesn't matter ....

but I didn't tell u to not do your best... =)

Just do your best...without any expectations for best or worst... then u will get what I m trying to convey here...

If people let u feel like shit... thank them... coz.. they let u know how strong u can get... =)

The day where u can enjoy the real taste of chocolate and chips..

is the day u can kick back a little.. sit back.. and enjoy a 2 hours movie..

LoL... that doesn't mean my exams are over... and that too doesn't mean that I DIDN'T FAIL MY TEST!! ... xD

Recently.. I thought of a best way to release stress...

this method... if u could do it once.. u will never forever be stress again.. LoL

that is...

Climb up to the top of the world...Mount Everest... (if u didn't die half way..) .. hahahah

and shout.. "FARK..! FARK!!... FARK!!!! U BLOODY DUMB SHIT!!!"

Can u imagine... u changed two correct answers to the wrong ones... and then u got 43/45..

t(-.-t). and this is still ok... can u imagine u just handed in a blank paper for organic chem?

hahahaha...... Hooray! U are so farked up..! xD

U just never get things farking even up don't u? one hand u got near perfect.. the other hand u got ZERO!! WTF... WTF.... WTF...

The job Brewmaster sounds cool ain't? lol.... if u like beer, this job will be practically ur mere hobby...creating beer.. and u know wat... the salary of a brewmaster is FARKING HIGH!! One of the top 10 cool jobs... too bad... I don't like beer...not interested in it.. and never want to be interested in it.. xD

Wanted to check it out in Carlsberg group website.. but.. it just take so farking long to load...

alcohol induces CYP2E1.. LOL.... Pharmacology.. I fell in love with u... xD have u done before a paper that made u wanted to dance around the exam hall..? coz it was just too fantastic that u knew almost every answer of every questions... lol.... so touching... HAHAHAHA

Ok... so long... Ciao!

(one day... my blogspot will be banned by blogger... coz... IT CONTAINS MORE THAN 17500 words "FARK!" and "WTF"! up to date.. LOL... )

When they say...

u achieve greatness by pushing ur own limit... exceeding ur own expectation... cross ur own barrier.. blah..blah..blah...

but HOLD ON!

first.. WHERE IS MY LIMIT? dunno where is the limit.. how to push? how to exceed? how to cross? LoL.... wtf..

guess... it is still time..

to..

keep working.. keep striving.. keep pushing...

till the day I get the perfect 100%..

no limit.. no expectation.. no barrier...

JUST PURE DOING THE VERY BEST TILL MY TINY BITS OF MY BONE!

LOL.... YES! Keep bringing them on...!

I fall... I get up.. I do it! ... if fall again... then get up again.. and do it!

but please... PLEASE!

dun let me FAIL! ...

After 5 days straight of no solid food... a taste of pepperoni pizza is HEAVEN!! Able to chew and bite again is so great..!! It makes u human...

LoL... ya.. wisdom tooth kills..

Before I start my another sleepless night let me update u guys with what I had this week.. although no one seems to care.. xD

If u want me to define half life...

I would say...

ya.. I have 100% confidence to get full mark in the physiology part of the paper.. and 100% confidence to get zero for the anatomy part of the paper... 50:50.. half-half.. hahaha....

In BIO210 Anatomy and Physiology paper...

Please identify structure 1.

Hmm... Ulna head?

Please identify structure 2.

Hmm.. Ulna shaft? ...

LoL... WTF... actually.. = = that shit is not ulna.. FML..

Identify structure 5.

Spinous process?

Identify structure 6.

Spinous process?

LoL... WTF.. they are two different structures! how the heck can be same name? Yes! this is called smart shooting... I m damn sure one of them is spinous process.. LoL...

Identify structure A.

Eye Socket?

LoL... t(-.-t) DO U KNOW THIS IS A BIO 200 level course..ANATOMY.. and u give me an answer of farking EYE SOCKET?!?! LOL.... Give me the latin name! hahaha.... tell u.. I m so screwed..! (I wanted to laugh so badly when I wrote the answer in the exam..Fark.. = = )

T__T Don't blame me... u see I have 10 lectures of physiology to cover...with the materials from textbook somemore..not just lecture materials.. TEXTBOOK IS GODLIKE SO THICK!! by the time I finished physiology.. I don't have enough time to cover anatomy.. T__T

But.. =D I m damn sure physiology part I SURE SCORE FULL!!! YEAH!! Every answer I put.. I smile broadly and with farking 200% confidence! coz I finished the whole farking chapters in the textbook..! lol... = = but smart people study anatomy first.. coz physiology was what u studied since standard 6.. x( wtf... u know.. I m dumb shit.. hahahaha

x( just anatomy.. never mind.. I will put in more effort next time..

and I just knew Hallux means ur toe... T__T WTF..!!

the questions was like this...

Tom fell and broke his Hallux.. which part of the body did Tom break?

A. Leg

B. Hip

C. Hand

D Toe

E... I forgot what was the option.

x( I chose hip.. KANASAI! Who will fall down and break toe one?!?! IMPOSSIBLE SHIT TO BREAK UR TOE BY FALLING DOWN!! This is LOGICAL THINKING!! LoL...

ok.. hope u guys had fun by reading this anatomical blog post.. hehehehe.... actually those were just a small part from the big part I screwed.. there were actually 20 labels to identify.. and I didn't get any of them correct.. except intervertebral disc.. FML..

LOL....

but.. surprisingly.. I still feel happy although I messed up the test... hahahaha.....

coz.. "Why so serious?" lol... I already had hair loss problem.. I dun want to stress anymore... hehehehe...... fark hair loss.. = =

It is Sunday again.. I guess..it is blogging time? lol... (if ever someone read my blog...)

Who said early birds get worms?

They get no worms..they got shit! coz the worms are still sleeping... hahahaha.....

Addicted to music played from ukulele.. the sound of this instrument is HEAVEN! LOL...

Search for the name Jake Shimabukuro... his "While My Guitar Gently Weeps"is darn awesome!!

Lots of things to do... I ain't no Superman ok... I woke up early.. but I couldn't start a thing...coz..it is a long weekend... u shall get rest in the long weekend since Monday is a holiday..! But..nah.. not for me.. x(

Some sons of b****** just dun know how to keep quiet during midnight when people need sleep...wtf..

Ok.. signing off... Yeah.. it is 7:30am.. 1 and half a hour gone just like that since I woke up... lol...

p/s: the best thing about a cold room is... CHOCOLATES DON'T MELT..! I just LOVE CHOCOLATES..! x)

yes.. I feel very very very cold in the morning... .

wake up shivering everyday..

hate to wake up as the floor is so icy cold..

dun want to crawl out from my blanket...

but.. Can I continue my sleep?! NO!! coz it is farking cold without a heater..

I will not tell u twice anymore...

because I never saw any old people like u all who is so mean...

Although it is very cold in early morning..

I can't study properly coz I keep trembling..

but.. never mind..

coz.. u let me know the ultimate truth of universe..

where.. humans are selfish...self centered... never think of other people's miserable life..

but.. we too... are also selfish .. self centered .. coz we want u to on the heater and never think of u need to save ur $$...

so.. look at ourself before we start to judge other people.. =D

and dun be too greedy...too attached on one thing..

take for example..

this case.. we are too greedy... too attached on turning on the heater..

so we feel miserable again.. just like in the summer...air conditioning case too..

Thank you my landlady!!

u test my patience to the ultimate... xD

u let me know what is my real strength..

and that I have became more mature...

if it was me four years or five years back...

ya.. u know what I would do... LOL...

but I feel sympathy for u..

coz in this old age of urs.. u should think maturely...do the right thing... and cares for others..

but U DID NONE OF THOSE...

so.. yup... hahahaha

Cont' my studies in pharmacology...

for my good readers.. "can u focus on ur studies when outside is below 10 degree Celsius and ur room feels like exactly the same temperature?"

but.. ancient poet from China could manage it.. why can't I? lol...

It is Saturday... and so it is blogging time!! lol...

how are u all doing? haha.... believe exams are hitting hard at this time of the term rite... haha...

Good Luck and All the Best everyone! ...

hahaha.....

Just had my organic chemistry exam yesterday... haha....

yeah.. as u expected.. I will say..I screwed up pretty much again.. xD

so..20%..Hmm... haha.....

anyway this time being positive ... I will not say I have screwed miserably..

but.. I have learned a lesson from this and shall do next exam better...

lol... *cross finger...coz imagine organic chemistry exam in 40 minutes..

Woohoo... xD

Primary school.. science paper... we had 2 hours..

High school...chemistry.. we had 2 hours and a half..

University ..chemistry.. we have 40 MINUTES?! xD

coming next...

Pharmacology.. Anatomy.... and Management...

what is the similarity between them?

it is I love them all! hahaha.....wtf..

to be honest.. I feel much better in second year compared to first year..

I mean... although the exams are more more hardcore.. but.. I still love them.. hahaha....

I guess... people changes through years rite...hehehehe

coz.. anyhow.. THERE IS NO NEED TO STRESS ...

JUST FACE IT..FEEL IT and FORGET IT.. hahahaha....

3 F's Rule...

at the ending of this boring post.. I will tell u guys a joke..

Two frogs...obviously one male and one female.. married... and they farked under water..so at the end.. they produce babies.. hahaha....

BUT... amazingly their babies look like toads!!

so the male frog gets all pissed off and shouted at the female frog

"U BITCH!! U CHEATED ON ME!!"

(= = they are frogs..not bitch ok..hahaha...wtf)

the female frog answered "T__T to tell u the truth.. I had a plastic surgery before this"..

........

lol....

ok.. I guess it is a lame joke anyway... hehehe.....

but first thing came up in my mind after reading it..

was... genetic heredity...wtf..hahahaha....

that is all people...!

Have a great week...

Remember...

Face the exam.. Feel the exam and..Forget about ur exam after it is done!

Rule of 3 F's.. xD

Signed off...

Here I wrote the Title..

Plugged in the headphones..

There I m again..

In my own world..

=)

Shield away from all the noises...

All the problems..

the barking of dogs..

the shouting of people..

the sound of footstep outside the door..

creaking of the floor..

the sound of conversation in foreign languages...

cars on the road...

water running from the tap..

cracking of pots from the kitchen...

rustling of leaves against the wind..

birds chirping...

raindrops....

All I hear is Music..

and assignments..lab reports and of the Bio and of the chemistry in the mind..

that is the only only thing I have...

I listen to Music.. I talk to Music.. and I sleep with Music..

=D

If u were to ask me...

Which of ur possession u considered as ur treasure..

I would say..

yes.. It is my headphones...

hold on.. it should be my ears ..

all these shielding away from noises...

pushing music into mind...

in the end...

u found alone one thing..

that is u were left there in ur own world

that has no population..

u speak...

u listen...

u laugh...

u smile...

to yes..no other than yourself...

then.. u step out from there..

unplugged..

and there u go..

to sleep..

into another world of dreams..

where everything is possible..

u can speak..

u can listen..

u can laugh..

u can smile...

with whoever u want to...

=D

Hey! to all the "nerds" in front of computer screen reading this... hahahaha.... How are u "nerds" doing these days? xD Have been more than one week not updating this blog...

Let's write about a post on "Totally Shit when Shit happens coz of ur own shit carelessshit" ... LoL...

Ok.. I know it isn't funny at all... (I m trying to be ok...) ..... = = fine! This entry is merely for self entertainment...

First shit case: U r happily taking ur warm shower... then u reached out ur hand and happily grabbed the familiar blue colored soap... BUT...WTF.. It smells different! and u looked closely... It was ur housemate's farking bathing soap that is having same colored as yours.. just..it SMELLS different.. T___T FML ... I can't accept it.. T__T

Second case in relative to first case: Fine.. u washed away the foreign smell...and u used ur own soap.. and finally ..u r happy.. BUT...FML again... = = found out.. U BLOODY FORGOT UR TOWEL!!! LoL....

Third shit case: In chemistry lab... in final last one hour.. YEAH!! I m going to finish today's lab early... but not only when I found out.. = = all my datas are around the same value... so seek out the TA...asked.. and TA showed me a stoned cold face saying.... "U r not using the correct wavelength.." OMG... It felt not only shit.. but a thousands of shit dumped down on u... F***.. Have to redo the whole damn lab in just one hour instead of 4 hours.. luckily didn't pour away the prepared solution... LoL... ya... I know.. I m being careless... didn't notice the wavelength.. T__T (aih... dunno why.. this year's chem lab..I m not that focus as last year.. gotta bucked up..!)

Fourth shit case: Woke up early in the morning... saw a centipede about 8cm waving at me on the wall... = = WALAO A... Centipede is POISONOUS! so.. took the dustpan..the small broom.. quickly threw it out from my room... dun want to kill it... coz I m so kind.. hahahaha..... u know why shit? COZ IT NEARLY BITE ME!! T__T If kena bitten.. I will not be here now to self entertain...and entertain u "nerds" ...

Fifth shit case: The above shits just made my day... LOL.....

Today is a happy day! coz.. we had orientation and quite lots of entertainment.. xD

Cheers!

Ok.. now u "nerds" can close your browser window and continue your "nerdy" work.. LoL....

We are nerds! so ... dun be angry ok...I calling u "nerds" nerds! lol.... coz.. WE ARE ALL NERDS! hahahaha........

They say when u make a wish upon the shooting star.. ur wish will come true..

I made one years and years back... maybe 15 years ago?

How long will it take for the wish to come true..? because mine never came true till now...

hahaha......

I think I had mistaken the airplanes in night sky are shooting stars... xD

" When once you have tasted flight, you will forever walk the earth with your eyes turned skyward, for there you have been, and there you will always long to return. " - Leonardo Da Vinci.

hahaha.... stole this from my brother Daniel's blog.. found it meaningful.. so share it with the readers..

So.. how high is ur dream? =)

Finally class STARTED! ...

BIO204- Physiology.. I LOVE IT !! xD

BIO210 - Anatomy and Physiology .. Finally something I LOVE!!

BIO200 - Pharmacology.. the prof's voice is so "sexy" .. lol..

CHM211 - Analytical Chemistry - so many titrations..O__O LAB PHOBIA!!

CHM242- Organic Chem - suppose to be ok i think.. T___________T

MGM101 - Management - One of the prof is the CEO for a company!! WOAH!!

I like BIO204 and BIO210..! hahaha......

Hmm.. hope it will be a great term! ..

ok.. will be less updates after this.. x)

Please give me strength..confidence..and concentration to strike in this term! =D

Had a nap.. woke up.. looked at the ceiling..

and for the first time I felt the reluctance to get my ass back in the lecture hall next week..

next week at this time...

I will be on my way back from school...with a heart and mind full of annoyance after a long kanasai day..

all shit to do....

racing against time...

trying to complete every shit... hahaha....

There will be no time to HAVE A NAP WHENEVER U LIKE ANYMORE...

Saw a lot of friends' status...

All the Best to them and glad that all touchdown in their respected location safely.. Toronto..Vancouver...and so on..

I know most of them felt reluctance to leave home again and get their ass back here...

but it's always like that ain't it? ... life works like that always.. xD

but spent time with ur family and friends.. u had great time together.. it would be better and a great way to motivate urself for a longer journey ahead... hahaha....

All I can say is .. YUP! TIME FLIES.. and IT WAITS FOR NO MAN.. x)

It has been raining for almost the whole day today...

Now is raining like cats and dogs.. I just love raining..

Ok.. that's it.. not much update.. but just a piece from me.. hahaha....

Be ready for a long...harsh...and hardcore academic term ahead! xD

but I just can tell... the upcoming term is going to be a great one... coz it will be better than the short and compact..and intense summer term... LoL ...

They say... Be positive..be optimistic is the strength to get over whatever shit...

ya.. if i were to choose being positive and being negative..

now.. I will choose being positive.. coz..ya indeed... like that.. u feel much better... =D

One word.. Believe in urself... (ok.. that made 3 words) .. xD

Believe in urself...not believing in the shit u doing...

Here is an inspirational quote..

"I m not old enough to play baseball or football. I'm not eight yet. My mom told me when u start baseball, you aren't going to be able to run that fast because u had an operation. I told mom I won't need to run that fast. When I play baseball, I'll just hit them out of the park. Then I'll be able to walk." -Edward J. McGrath Jr, "An Exceptional View of Life", quoted in Chicken Soup for The Soul by Jack Canfield & Mark Victor Hansen, 1993.

To those who doesn't know baseball..I also dunno a thing about baseball.. but the person who hit the ball..have to make a homerun.. =) so.. now do u get the amazing meaning behind this quote?

Right ....

How to do the right thing?

It is easy..

just follow this method..

Think with ur right brain... carry out the action with ur right hand... and feel it with ur right heart.. x)

want to know the reason behind it?

simple...

There is no reasons... just do it...accept it... and experience it...

then u will know...

THERE IS NO NEED REASON FOR EVERYTHING!

It just happens... xD

Felt I m really older by one year after went to airport to welcome the new batch of first year students..

x)

Remembering the first day when I arrived at Toronto Pearson International Airport..

Hmm....

How can describe my feeling on that day... hahaha..... I should say I felt just normal..a bit excited.. haha...that's all...

but today... after spending exactly one year in Toronto... seeing the new batch of first year students.. I would say I have another new realization... which I really can't describe in words.. xD

Mathew said we some sort have a generation gap with them.. LoL... is it true? haha.... but we did spend quite some time trying to break the ice in between.. hahaha..... xD it is just the first day...

U know.. the best way to break the ice.. is to just let it melt as the time goes by.. hahaha.... learnt this in a leadership camp during high school.. xD

Ok.. that's all for today...gotta sleep.. hahaha..... xD

anyway.. today did make me feel that as an older person..we do have a greater responsibility... =D

Another cloudy morning....

Wrote something but I erased it at the end...

something about some principles I hold ..

but .. nah.. I think it is better to have them in myself..

no need to write it out.. hahaha....

"have" and "don't have" ... what is such a big deal when u have something? does it mean u will have it forever? hahaha..... if u don't have something.. no worries.. u will have it someday.. just not now.. x)

Please be considerate... don't just think about urself.. u know why there are people around u? because they need ur attention too.. hahaha

so I guess.. yup..

that is all for today's post...

lol... it is very short ain't it?

很久没用华语写长长的部落格了。

要嘛我就现在写，要不我就不写了。

写部落格的目的是什么？

就是一个内心空虚的人想找个地方让大家知道他做些什么。

哈哈哈。。写到这样真的会给人扁的。。 哈哈哈

那来说说我的长处好了。。 lol

其实。。真的没有耶。

读书很好？ 放屁！考试都没拿过95% 不要说100了。 哈哈哈

平行良好？哥儿们还说我没文化叻。lol

自我反省能力很好？屁啦！如果是这样，那我还在这干什么？早就去睡啦。

还有很多，倒头想一想，全都一一被击退。　哈哈哈

那现在，不用多说，你也知道我的短处了。哈哈哈。。　

显。。　也没什么兴趣写下去。。　写了。。每个人看了也没回应。。　

你知道那个comment link 是干嘛用的吗？

就是，你看到好的文章就去给好的评语。。

看到不好的也可以给一下不好的评语。。

看到无聊的，就去骂他。comment 里面有个anonymous 的button。

哈哈哈。。

至少也让我知道我没白写！！！

每次看到 0 comment.. 真的是很想他妈的关掉部落各。

这么辛苦写些烂文章。。我要放上这样烂的，我也不好意思啦。　哈哈哈

也不是为了你们有东西看才写的。。　哈哈哈。。　

最近喜欢上用这个“笑脸”--> t(-.-t)

哈哈哈。。　credits to T. Xiang Rong.. LOL

遇到哥儿们在msn讲屌话，就用这个。。　哈哈哈。。　

超爽。。　哈哈哈

难怪人家说我没文化。。　

这样就没文化？大多数美国片从到尾这么多F 字，你们又这么爱看。。

哈哈哈。。 好像只有我爱看。。 LOL

Ok.. that's all... I think this is another = = post.. I shall stop writing blog so frequently..

lol.... better spent time thinking what theme my novel should be if I were to write one when I retired.. hahahaha......

life is good...with pillows.. xD

Watched a very touching movie... by Morgan Freeman.. "Bucket List"

it is about two strangers met in a hospital and they are facing death coz of cancer..one is a billionaire but is lonely.. another is a poor guy with a happy family.. and they both made a list of what they want to do before death..skydiving...race cars..all the joyful things u can think of.. at the end.. one of them left earlier.. but the one last final thing they accomplished was the same..that is to find joy in their family.. =)

it teaches us how we shall value our life and live it with joy..and along the way.. don't lose our true self.. =)

Very good movie.. =) recommend it to everyone.. it can be found in PPS..

Cried again coz of a touching movie... it is so damn good to watch a touching movie ... haha

Cheers..! Life is good... =)

We only have it once.. so make it a good one..

YES!! HOLIDAY!! IT IS HOLIDAYS!! Lala...lalala.... hahaha.....

When u get shit in ur exams...

u make the best shit out of it...

and give them shit back..!

but dun ever shit in ur pants! ...

LOL....

I m in so lucky shit to do Science... if u let me do humanity course.. I m so in deep shit... but although science is a deeper shit... I still prefer deeper shit... coz..at least in deeper shit.. u sink faster than in deep shit.. LOL.... half sinking and half feeling helpless is so torturing.. so better one shot sink to the bottom in the deepest shit! ... LOL... xD

-Best quote 2010.. wtf..

Tried watching twilight... OMG... The movie is so... SIENZZZZZZZZ... t(-.-t) .. LOL....

I want bloody movies.. with many slashing..stabbing..bombing...shooting scenes.. where u can see people's head being chopped down!! YEAH!!

The sequel for movie xXx: The return of Xander Cage is coming out in 2011!!.. anyone heard of it? hahaha.... this is a damn best movie back then..

Hmm.... other than watching movies... I like nothing to do anymore... wtf.. holidays..Come On! ..

Read books? = = I have novels .. alot of them in pdf format.. xP

u see... this is the problem...

when got holidays... Nothing to do...

when no holidays... u doing nothing! LOL...

Have been playing those sniper games online... HAHAHA.... The feeling of giving those stick people headshot is so good... xD Aim nicely.. then Bang...! their head gone with the .50 caliber bullet.. LOL...

Another thing that I m interested in other than car.. is guns! LoL...

Cars.... ya... those gleaming...expensive super cars.. WoAH... O__O ... so beautiful..

hahaha.....

My room is so messy..and dusty.. Holy Cow... unbearable.. spring cleaning tomorrow! hahaha

*yawn... finally ... after hardcore summer courses... I can sleep peacefully.. x)

突然之间...

早上起来...

有种莫名...

的伤感........

If u already knew that a thing is right down to earth impossible to be done..

will u still do it?

everyone is telling u to give up...it is impossible.. too hard..

for me.. I will do it!

why?

simple reason...

maybe this impossible shit is a life changing one..

either towards good or towards bad..

that.. I shall know later after I completed the impossible shit..

do first then think is never my way...

mine is .. do first...then never think... and of course think first..then never do..

x) Cheers!

The moon is no where to be seen when the sun is out...

but it is always there... =)

when the sun set..

the moon looks perfect...

in the way.. that it is softer than the sun..

in the sky ... with all the stars..

never alone..

The sun..although it shines radiantly.. but

it outruns all the other stuff in the sky.. hahaha

but

of course...

we cannot live without the sun...

but can we live without the moon..?

the moon reflects the lights of the sun...

so..

yup..all things are dependent on every other things..

but can u fly to the sun?

so..

let's fly to the moon... =)

If u dun make a choice...

then the choice will make u.. =)

- the movie Ghost Rider.

very well said...

Have u ever imagine...

if u r one day being stranded on an island somewhere in the pacific ocean...

remember.. an island may not have any running water...and it is surrounded with tonnes and gallons of seawater..

will u choose to leave the island? or choose to stay at the island waiting for help?

First, find garbage dump which are being washed up to the shore by the ocean...bringing tonnes rubbish thrown by humans.. There u may found something useful... either to make a raft or keeping u survive..

then of course find a way build to fire with smoke.. signalling nearby passing ships..

of course u have to find water... blah..blah.. blah..

If u r interested... go find out in Man vs Wild.. I saw this guy cook snake in the heating sand in desert and eat the snake.. LoL... he is just a survival skills freak! I love him!

ya.. I watched that stupid show back again..

hahaha....

coz.. it is impossible we will be going to any island somewhere in pacific ocean and stranded on it..

and I will find a way to get out from that island... coz..when u r building a raft or something.. u have stayed on the island for quite some time rite... so..if no help comes.. then we get out la.. hahaha.....

by the way.. it would be very nice to see a shark in real... x)

a great way to die too... who say u must be dead when u see a shark? lol..

but shark.. I do think they are cute...

u know why they want to eat u?

because u eat them in the first place..

Ok.. gotta back to study...

Keys off!

Peace..! -in within-

xD

Finally finished the research paper in 20 hours...

If I could get an A in it.. I will stop facebook for half a year...

LoL...

Today is the last class... T__T I will definitely miss this prof.. he is the best teaching prof I ever seen for history courses... u know.. history is a very dull subject... but he teaches it in such a cool way.. lol... very helpful when u want help in doing thesis paper... I went to see him 4 times..

T__T why there is no such prof for science courses?

Humanity profs are really more human I guess.. hahaha.....

I will definitely miss him... Can I go see him next fall and the other terms just for fun? maybe to discuss some philosophical stuff... Hmm.... Dunno can or not... hahaha.... being a friend with him would be nice.. =)

freak... till here.. only I realized the way I narrated my blog..it is so sucks.. hahaha..... boring...

= =

Finally I m fed up with the anime Bleach...

now I catch back Detective Conan... hahaha.... guess I like stuff that is more using ur brain.. not just slashing up monsters... xD

Can someone's brain be just like Conan? or should I say just like Sherlock Holmes.. yaya..both are fictional characters... but...the authors? must be very smart too rite? I mean in real life.. they must have people who have outstanding observing and interpretation skills... Hmm.. detective..sounds cool.. xD I hope I can have a brain like that...

Most students say... "Why holidays is so short... I do not want to be back in class again.."

but me? "I want more classes... I m afraid of holidays now... mind it.. I just want class...but I don't want exams.." lol....wtf..

Learnt that... we should really appreciate it when we have the chance to learn... see...u should be grateful that u got the chance to learn the knowledge in this fast moving world... how cool is that?

Don't ask me why the way I write have become so dull... not-interesting...boring.... I do not have the answer... maybe when u start to grow older... u lost ur sense of humor??

hahaha.... between ur humerus and ur ulna.. there is this funny bone... I don't know what is the function of this bone.. but it definitely does not look funny to me...

that day I went to search for jokes on the net... read through all the jokes that people shared... and I found out.. I didn't even laugh at all... =__= ...

I just found out... my study table is really big... till now.. I just using only half of the table... one side laptop.. the other side books for research paper plus I can write on this side... the other half which is the upper half.. I still leaving it blank... Hmm... is it me turning thinner... or the table is really big? Damn... I hope is the latter .. not the formal.. hahaha....

Every four hours... I feel hungry again...

Every four hours.. I automatically wake up from sleep...

Every four hours.. I feel sleepy...

24 divide by 4.. six.. I can do each of the above actions twice..

ya..

I eat twice a day.. lunch and dinner...

I sleep twice a day... night and day nap.. people said 8 hours is the perfect duration for sleep...but I split it up..so is it fine? hahaha.....

so total.. I spent my whole 24 hours just doing all that above.. x)

Cheers!

Wait till I have another interesting post ... but I guess no more after this... (come on! even this is a shit post..)

so long... Ciao!

WHEN IS SUMMER GOING TO END?! I WANT WINTER...!!!

Wait till I get home next year.. I will rock till the house fall! LoL... I miss my beloved piano.. please wait for me.. xD u r still the best although I m starting to get attracted to other digital pianos like Yamaha...Korg..M Audio also not bad.. lol....

I run from hate, I run from prejudice..

I run from pessimists, but I run too late..

I run my life, or is it running me...

I run too fast or too slow it seems.

When lies become the truth,

that's when I run to you..

I run to you - Lady Antebellum 2008..

great song.. lots of other fantastic songs from this band.. x)

You can do everything without the help of others...

but you can't help others without doing anything...

xD

but I guess... this world keeps spinning because u help others and others help you..

this is why you and others are here for...

We are here to help... and of course..

for us to help.. there must be a problem to be solved or a situation for us to help rite?

so.. there are others who are here to create problems too.. LOL

and so I hope I m the one who is here to help...and not the one who create problems.. hahah

about the matter of being helped? nah.. I dun really care... coz I like doing things with my own strength... unless it is really a serious problem ... xD

hahah.... missing my brothers... how ridiculous it is for time to pass so fast...

already three years? hahaha..... really uncivilized la.. hahhaha

ok.. that is all..

Ciao! sleeping...

Cheers people!

I love diet coke... xD

This is what I meant by a perfect day..

x)

It will always be perfect as long as u think it is.. x)

and u can actually know who are the regular passengers on the same bus as u hopped on the bus at the same time after your class.. so..

yup..today.. surprisingly there is another person on the same bus.. hahahaha.....

and although I didn't get to speak to that person...

but the person just made my day..

x)

simply a perfect day... =)

not forgetting... of coz plus a load of caffeine in the bloodstream... x)

Ok.. Ciao!

Keys off..

still gotta take a nap..

and I totally forgot that I have an assignment due tomorrow..

I want to shout out FARK!! 100 times..

LoL.. but who cares.. today is the perfect day.. and I m not gonna ruin it by a stupid assignment..and a stupid research paper.. x)

Cheers!

A shout out to those people that having your last month of summer break...

Have lots of fun..!

coz I believe u guys had a great and fun summer holidays..

and I have a wonderful summer too...

coz I had learnt something out of my own boundaries... and yup..a little bit out from the classroom.. =)

and I believe every summer will be better than its previous one.. =D

Ooh.. I just love raining days.. x)

Just updated coz I changed the music for the blog.. =) so wanna share it with the readers

very cool music... hahaha.....

Watched Erm...let me count... 2 and a half movies yesterday...

Blackhawk Down ... X Men Origin: Wolverine... and the anime Cat Shit One.. LoL ...

I guess when we are down and feeling not good... sometimes..we need to keep ourselves outside of the situation rite? just escaped for a while then going back again...

I prefer this way.. escaped for a while then face it again... x) but I will not escape forever.. u know me... being responsible is always in my dictionary.. x)

Blackhawk Down.. war movie.. but very very touching and inspiring...

there was a sentence in the last part of the movie... where a sergeant speak to a corporal..

"Why are u going back again... this is suiciding..."

"There are still people trapped in there..."

"......."

"Long ago a friend asked me why would I be a soldier and fighting other people's war...I kept silence coz they won't understand it no matter what I answered..

It is not about being a hero.. it is about saving the man beside us..."

"No one gets left behind..."

T__T Thumbs up for this movie... =)

It was based on a true story in 1993.. Somalia..

19 US soldiers perished and 2000 militia killed...

coz of a wrong info given by the intel...

imagine that.. 19 against 2000... aih... war...

Wolverine too let me learn something.... his persistent and his courage.. hahaha

I guess no matter what movies I watched these days... I still learn something... =D

O ya.. Cat Shit one.. LoL .. this was a anime made by Japan that is not in theater..and it is free online..

very cute and touching too .. two rabbits going for war... and saving each other.. =D

When we are stress... not happy... bothered by some shit... we just have to give a break to ourselves... dun push ourselves too hard.. then we come back... and strike again.. hahaha

ya.. that is my reason for procrastinating and wasting time...

Got my midterm result yesterday... Hmm... I will not say I m not happy about it...and neither not satisfied with it... coz everytime I keep asking myself.. "Is this the best that u could do?" "Why other people can do it and u can't?" ..... now I would say.. "If u can do what other people can do.. then u are not being urself rite?"

hahahaha....... Maybe I m not the material for scoring high grades...maybe I m a material for some other stuff...that is still not discovered by me yet... =) hope so it is like that...I do not want to be an epic failure..

so yup... that is me.. always giving excuses.. lol.... till when will I be satisfied?

I tell u.. we human beings will never be satisfied no matter how... although if u said u r satisfied with what u have now... please...u r just lying... ur brain thought so..but does ur heart feel that way?

One more thing... please don't fake urself in front of me.. I m not stupid.. I can tell if u r being real or u r faking urself... this is just what I m good in... =D Sometimes I can tell what u r thinking..so please dun fake urself in front of me.. u disgusted me.. how pathetic....

Just please don't do that.. if u don't like it... just show it.. not like I will kill u on the spot..

ya.. maybe last time I would.. but now... I will not... lol... coz.. we are adults now... last time we used to be teenagers..

Yea.. enough said... no matter what happened.. I m still going to be myself... coz no point of changing myself for some shit... coz like my brother said.. I m already in deep shit.. LoL...how true...

Peace!

Keys off... x)

No person and nothing really makes me laugh heartily...

coz.. I know ...

deep in heart ...

those laugh u all trying to make are just bullshit...

when there is a problem arise...

There is always no one there to help...

This what I meant by loneliness...

but this doesn't mean I will isolate myself...

I will still try to make the people around me laugh sometimes...

Will still try my best to help you all when u all have a problem...

those that really know me... u know how I behave as a friend..

never mention how I behave as a brother...

and by the way..

I really dislike those people that...

when they need u.. they made u feel like u r needed..

when they do not need u.. they just push u aside..

ignoring u...

ya.. u get what I m saying...

but all of this is fine with me...

coz... maybe I do treat people like that...

so.. when u don't want someone to treat u badly

u shall not treat people like that at the first place...

Ok.. enough said...

Never mind... this type of feeling..

to be honest.. I had had it for a very long time...

no matter where I am... no matter when ... no matter whom I am with..

there is always this loneliness creeps in...

maybe I shall blame it on my poor human human relationships...

I have no problem communicating with non-living things...

yea.. that is all..

=) Cheers...

I know I have to accept this forever... but never mind.. it is fine afterall... this is no big deal..

who doesn't feel lonely sometimes? =)

sudden thought.... x)

Decided to reopen the blog... coz today is Canada's Civic Holiday... and I m "civilized" .. so I will open my blog again... hahaha..... and I may close it again .. some other time...

(Don't say I purposely closed my blog previously for this entry.. that is bullshit.. LOL...)

Ideas I realized today:

Emptiness of Emptiness... x) I love this thing.. so empty yet so full of meanings... hahaha

To me it is like a deep empty well of emptiness... so deep down...and once u jump down and start to be embraced by it..u actually feel that nothing is there for u to feel empty... and empty is there for u to feel nothing.. x) nature of reality... ( this is only my own perception... It doesn't mean it should be like that..)

U find less joy and less happiness and pain if u r loving only one person... maybe if u r lucky u love more than one person...lol...

but u will find great joy and happiness...less sorrow..less pain if u starting to love everyone .. everything... =D although if u do shit to me.. I will still like u from now on.. it is no point to hate anyone.. why would I have to dislike anything or anyone when there is like.. LoL ... (facebook only have like button...why doesn't it has a dislike button..? coz first to keep the harmony within community and second...ya..why should there be dislike when there is already like as the choice of urs?...u can choose to like or dun want to like.. just do not dislike) LOL

This is called great compassion... at least that is what I think it is called.. x)

Enlightened.. Hmm... Great eh.. I think it is just not great...not greater and non of the greatest... it is there in everyone..just a matter of whether u want it or not.. x)

Never be ignorant.. u know what I meant by ignorant don't you? coz everyone is being ignorant... LoL... ignoring what is wrong (never will get lesson from the wrong things u did)..worse..ignoring what is right ( never will be taught and be advised for good).. but what is wrong and what is right? Hmm...

When u start to accept everything...there is nothing for u to accept..

when u accept nothing... then there is everything for u to absorb...

Mind plays an important role...

again.. I will say it is not important...just a matter of whether u have the mind for it or not.. not brain ..it is mind.. x)

Dun get distracted or depressed or miserable or confused or ponder over what I said today...

This was everything that I learnt today...

When I came of thinking about it... I actually learnt nothing...

maybe tomorrow I may learn something..

the day after that I may learn nothing again..

so.. no one taught me everything... and everyone taught me nothing... or maybe it was everyone taught me everything.. and no one taught me nothing...

at the end.. I may have learnt nothing or everything... hahaha..... be careful.. what is nothing when u got an empty mind?

It has to be empty at the first place to be contained .. =)

U have to have nothing to have everything.... and yet.. u have to have everything to become having nothing...

U have to be empty to be full... and yet.. u have to be full to be empty again.. x)

Again... I already mind you... Dun get too distracted..too confused.. too wanting to ponder over what I wrote... Dun go to bed tonight still recalling what I wrote in the post today...

Do you know what is Sudden Realization?

It is like I m telling u a joke... u have to catch the laughing point at that instant to burst out laughing rite? if u didn't catch the laughing point.. no matter how hard I explain to you.. how hard u ponder over it... u still will not laugh..although if u did laugh.. still u will not enjoy it..

and this is what sudden realization meant... u have to leave it... stop thinking about it.. stop studying it.. then u will realize it out of a sudden... =D

But this doesn't mean u can leave it without reading it.. without studying it.. without pondering over it...

Let's take an easier example...

Let say.. u never taste a durian before.. u know durian?

Ok.. then ur south east asian friend who likes durian keeps on telling u how much he misses durian... how tasty .. how good durian is... he tells u everything about durian..

then...regardless whether u r interested.. if u r interested.. u went to find out what durian is... u google.. u went to find books...news...facts about durian... growth rate of durian...structure of durian till its atomic component... if u r no way near interested... then u may also heard before durian from other friends...other news..other websites..other sources..

so now u know damn lot about durian... u know everything about durian...

but still u know nothing of durian... u didn't get a real taste of durian...

then one day... one day.. out of a sudden..

u found durian selling at super market..

so u bought one and tried it urself..

and here... Tadaa... u know .. u realized the true .. real essence..taste of durian! LoL ..

all of this sudden realization of how durian taste like ...

now only u can choose to accept the durian or not.... x) for some people durian is unexpectedly tasty..and for some people.. it is just not nice... LoL

all of this is what we always called... "ZEN" (a simple word perhaps u took a glance at nowhere...heard from no one.. read from no other books...or a word u saw from somewhere..heard from everyone..read from some books...)

Sudden realization...

x) now have u catch the point?

***first part of my research paper? Hmm... interesting...?

Nah... things like this is just too smart for me... coz I m oversmarted (this word is nowhere to be found in dictionary)... xD

If u were to say that this post is simply brilliant.. I may take it as nothing but keep in mind.. I may take it as everything as well.. x)

If u say this is bullshit... I may also take it as nothing.. but keep in mind... what is nothing again?

LoL... dun confused nothing as empty.. x)

Keys off...

*Warning ...

Do not get confused... do not ponder over .. do not get miserable .. do not argue over this post...

Leave it... coz if u were to realize what I wrote... u will realized and fully understand it instantly when the time come if it was not just now..or if it is not now..or if it will not be next time.. x) so when the heck u will realized it? I had said... u will understand it suddenly... x) it could be just now...it can be now..and it can be next time.. hahaha.....

Anyway.. this is just my sudden realization at this second... the next second.. I may have another sudden realization.. x)

Ciao!

(shit.. I still haven't got any idea what to write for my research paper after writing this blog..)

FML --> For My Love in History....

And Oo.. ya.. people.. dun mistaken emptiness with nothingness... x)

just take a cup as an example...

how does the cup empty?

we often said a cup is empty when it does not contain liquid or solid rite?

but is the cup really empty?

consider air filling the cup...

if u said why don't we put the cup in vacuum?! O__O

then what about the light filling in the cup?

Oo.. vacuum + dark?

so what about the radiation in the cup? or spaces in the cup..?

the cup must has space inside rite?

LoL ....

actually... the cup is empty ..

because which part of it is the cup?

it is cylindrical? it is spherical? or any shape...

nah...other object that is not cup has those shapes too...

because of its function?

nope... glasses or vase can perform function as a cup too...

hahaha....

the cup is only a cup because of all the components that make it a cup...

if u break one of it...let say u break the cup into pieces..

is it a cup anymore?

LoL

the cup is only a cup dependent on all its external circumstances..

The cup is empty..but is cup is not nothing because the cup exists... x)

I think I wrote a post about something called a table with similar crap.. Hmm.. anyway.. it is interesting.. doesn't it? LoL ...

心很乱

Why everything is not in its proper order?

Aargh... F***!!

NO!! NOT HER AGAIN!!! WHY?!

An ultimate news I just saw on the university portal page..

Guess what?!

The prof who screwed my life in summer Molecular Biology

is NOW BACK in teaching GENETICS in WINTER TERM.. and Molecular in FALL term..

OMFG... FARK!!!

T__T

so touched

I thought I would never see her again in my whole farking uni life..

and now... TADAA ... Here she is again teaching me the HARDEST COURSE in BIOLOGY.. GENETICS..!!

T__T

I m so touched now... I feel like crying...

T__T

Why must this prof always teach HARD-CORE BIOLOGY?!

T__T

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If u want to know how she screwed up my "always happily loving Biology" life back in sunshine summer time. .. haha... read my previous posts... u will know why I m so touched till want to cry... T__T

guess my uni life in next winter will be an UNFORGETTABLE one..

To those who are doing molecular biology in this upcoming Fall term.. LUCKY SHIT I TOOK HER MOLECULAR BIO in summer... T__T ... u all will need to face her for two terms.. LOL...

Oooo... I m just so touched now.. T__T

Why must the uni let her teach GENETICS..??!! T__T

HER MCQ QUESTIONS... O FARK... just thinking about it.. I feel like crying now.. T__T

HER STRUCTURAL QUESTIONS... O FARK... when doing the paper.. u will have hot tears in ur eyes.. T__T.. the paper.. is just so.. T__T *sobs...

SHIT!! SHIT!!! NEVER A PROF IN UNIVERSITY TEACH TWO DIFFERENT COURSES IN ONE ACADEMIC YEAR... T__T THis prof seriously broke the record.. Molecular Biology and Genetics.. LOL

I think I know why.. the uni likes her.. coz she pull up the standard by setting hard like hard shit..hard core paper... (the class average for summer term.. mind that.. it is 50%... xD ) just to let u guys know HOW shit IT can Be..) T__T

Hope she will make her paper easier this term... pray hard people... pray hard.. we need divine intervention for this upcoming year... T__T

T__T I will cry whole night today... T__T Arghh....!

I still remember what she told us in class back then... T__T the words still lingering in my brain..

"MCQ questions are my specialization... Read carefully before answering... Answer what the question is asking.. not what u think is being asked..."

T__T

Her MCQ questions.. Is... T__T INDESCRIBABLE..

Let say u have 100 questions... the first 50 questions u thought u did them correctly.. but when u did the other 50.. u will start doubting whether u have answered the first 50 correctly or not..

T__T

that is what I m saying... SHE IS THE MASTER IN MCQ questions... confusing u.. doubt whether u have done ur best in answering.. she is a witch.. T__T

T__T

T__T ... <-- this is the only expression I can present here today... crying inside out.. heart..lungs... T__T WHY?!?! WHY?!?! Genetics man.. COME ON..!! NOT HER..!! T__T

When u have determined to strive ur best again... ya... here it comes.. more and more shit to let u strive ur best and prove urself even harder... T__T

Why must u make my life upside down...then in and out u turned it over? T__T

FML!!! <--- Do not get me wrong... FML = For My Love in Biology..!!

I SHALL NEVER GIVE UP .. NEVER GIVE IN..!!

T__T What a touching... shocking...dynamic...mesmerizing...day I have... today is just a day..

upcoming term.. it will be EVERY DAY...

It only takes u 3 seconds in the world to realize that u r a total failure urself...

I have not been doing my best all this while...

Is this the best that u can do? Michael...then u r a total failure..

maybe this really is the best that I could do...just that I couldn't accept it...

Needed someone to talk to.. but at the end.. found only me is there for myself...

It is no time to reflect on urself anymore.. u have reflected so many times.. but still u give shit to urself.. FACE THAT!!

En__RoLL n' Rock !!

This always happens during course enrolment days..

lol.. I m not saying everyone sticking their ass to the chair and gluing on the monitors and waiting for their course enrolment start time... xD

although that sounds kinda ridiculous.. but ya..that is a fact.. hahaha

what I m telling here is...

everyone..everyone.. including me.. always has this feeling or mindset.. that...

"OMFG... my timetable looks so loose... I think I am doing not enough .. Shall I do more courses?"

hahaha.... or something similar to that... ya..actually.. doing more is better.. coz u see..20 credits for 4 years is farking alot.. considering that some courses are only half credits.. lol...

u looked through ur timetable.. and.. "ya.. I can still add some courses into.. xD "

then u search through the list of courses... (forgetting that I m having 4 bios and 3 chems... that is going to be WAH... SO SYOK!!)

And then.. u started considering courses like... Earth science..? Environment? History of religion? (Again..??.. NO WAY~~!!) .. Drama acting? LOL ... Philosophy? French? Italian? Spanish? Japanese? Theater studies? Economics? ...... the list goes on... till someone saw this.. Theory of SEXUALITY..?! O__O sounds interesting... lol... but level 400 course... u will get hell of a time if u do that.. sex is rough..sorry tough i said.. xD (I mean gender studies.. =__= )

ya.. so there goes my day of course enrolment.. hahaha.... all went to waiting list.. xD

life is always about waiting eh.. ~

u do ... u wait... then u do again.. and u wait... hahaha

u can't always do and do and do and do and do and do.... u will die.. hahaha

u must wait.. then do .. wait then do again.. lol....

ya.. I m tying to say that.. we all just need a break sometimes eh? xD and of course not forgetting.. u have to give people around u a break too.. we all enjoy freedom.. lol..

(can't blame me.. I m having troubles conveying my thoughts nowadays...)

that day.. I was telling this restaurant that I want chicken with black pepper sauce.. and she heard beef with black pepper sauce..? =__= Does chicken sounds like beef? hahaha

ya.. if u consider from the biology view..that all are distant ancestors.. and blah..blah..blah... hahaha... I can give her an hour lecture if she really gave me beef... lol

my mom was telling me this news about new fleas from dogs that causes viral infection to the brain? after she knew I had a headache.. =__= hahah....

Looks like.. IT IS TIME TO GET RID OF THE DOGS (long time didn't see blood hiek hiek)... hahaha..... wait till I found the cut from the news online.. PRint it out.. and Throw it on the landlady's face!! lol....

Hang on Dogs! U will be out of this house so soon... lol....

ya.. I have memory failure these days... someone asked where I stay the other day.. and I forgot my home address... hahaha...... I M SERIOUS!! (This is not something to make my blog reading funnier... =__= ) ... I suddenly forgot the street's name.. T__T took some time to recall that it starts with Ib_____

xP u think I m gonna write it here?! =__= for security purposes.. nah... hahah.... I have one..two.. three...four..five...six.hmm...seven... Ya.. seven lives on my hand... lol

ya.. just hope that I will not forget u ... xD slowly forgetting tho.. hahaha....

Ok.. Ciao..! research paper coming up soon..FML .. -->For My Love in history..

-Chill people!- keys off..

Everyone Loves Paul..

Paul the Octopus has been a very hot issue around the globe these days...

Well... u dun need me to tell here what he has done... hahaha.... everyone knows him..

it will be a long list of the good deeds he had done... from Germany to England to Spain.. xD

I just have two questions in mind now...

What if we have an octopus like that as our pet?

Wow! That must be awesome eh?

An octopus telling u your future.. xD he predicts everything for u..so u can get ahead what may happen... example if u confess to someone u like..then the answer is "yes" or "no" .. haha.. he may as well tell u.. xD it is better to get disappointed by an octopus than... hahaha......wtf

lol.. but nah.. not me.. I will not let an octopus telling me what to do...

Second question..

Is every octopus in the world same as Paul?

Maybe every octopus can predicts a erm.. soccer match result... ok.. maybe not every octopus...just Most of them might have this ability..

ya.. so.. Just go on .. catch an Octopus..and asked it the FIFA 2010 results that their brother Paul predicted.. see whether they knew what their brother Paul has done... xD LOL.. Poseidon might have a TV in his undersea palace...

so.. PEOPLE!! STOP EATING OCTOPUS FROM TODAY!!

Octopus sounds like "On-Top-of-Us" hahaha.........

Eerie... imagine an octopus on top of u and try to squeeze u to death with its eight tentacles.. wtf.. worst nightmare.. xD

Believe me.. to those that didn't study Biology.. trust us.. Octopus is a highly intelligent creature.. u dun want to know how they catch their preys with the camouflage stuff and all the beyond imagination shit..

Now.. Paul has shown u what an octopus can do... hahaha..... so.. Cherish ur life people! before octopus'es take over the planet Earth...! hahahaha

Chill..~ Keys off.. x)

Looks like I somehow still bearing the heat wave.. 43 degree celsius today... OMFG..

Landlady:" Michael.. u have to discuss with Vishaek (the other housemate) to clean the bathroom.. it is so dirty.. the showering area..blah..blah..blah..."

U see... the weather has been so so so hot hot hot these couple of days.. 40 degree to 45 degree celsius ... and this guy is working till evening everyday.. at the end.. it will only be me cleaning the bathroom... with no bloody air conditioning... U THINK I M A BLOODY DUMB ASS?! U want me to locked in the bathroom and clean the whole shit?! FARK U!! Even my room is burning like hell... the bathroom even like hell-est.. u shower and sweat together in the bathroom... INSANE SHIT

In ur dream I m going to clean it... u promise us air conditioning for summer heat... NO SINGLE SHIT FROM THAT U HAVE DONE... now U WANT ME TO CLEAN THE BATHROOM IN A SO FARKING HOT 45 degree celsius weather? *middle finger... oOo oOo who is gonna pay for my medical fees if I fainted during the cleaning in such a hot hot hot temperature? WAIT TILL WINTER only I will consider cleaning the bathroom.. u silly bitch!!!

sometimes... things that u chose ... people dun like and they somehow blamed u...and wanted to blame u more and made u felt bad.. u think I want this to happen?! u forgot we were in deep shit and had no direction that time? this was .. ya.. a rash decision... yaya.. my bad... fark..

When things went wrong... ya.. everyone feels bad...everyone wants to find a way to escape... ok..that is fine...

Attachment --> Dissatisfactory --> Suffering ....

I m going to take the middle way... neither any extreme side.. not gonna blame anyone...not gonna hate anyone...not gonna say anything... and not gonna think about things that have not been done... all these will only make me feel worse...

=) release the negative thoughts and feels the calmness in ur mind... hahah.... meditation.. Woohoo... A heat stress like this...needs cool meditation...and of course a fan that is facing u... xD

Cheers people! hahaha.......

Do not compare... it will only make u feel bad..coz u always compare with the best and u will feel cheated... unless u compare with the poor..then u will feel fortunate...

Do not hate... it comes from and leads to anger... anger leads to suffering urself..

A table is a table only when everything from it joined and form a table...

If there is a table..then the screws must have the "tableness" rite? If u take out the screws from the table...are the screws the table? No..

If there is a table..then the woods must have the "tableness" rite?

So when u take the woods out from the table .. are the woods the table? No..

If u take the metals out from the table.. are the metals the table? No..

so.. what is it that is a table?

If u take everything out from the table...from screws to woods.. to metals...etc.. at the end.. it will be left with nothing... so after the breaking down part..where is the table?

Nothing is everything... and everything is nothing... =)

If everything is a big deal.. then what is it with nothing is a big deal?

Let say nothing is a big deal... do u think everything is still a big deal?

Cheers!

Deep stuff eh? ya.. digest it slowly.. lol...

Dun cry over stuff that we dun have and will not get... cherish stuff that we have now.. and appreciate them before they are gone... =)

Dun say this post of mine is too deep.. or piece of crap.. partly of it is due to the heat stress.. and partly of it .. I realize... heat stress or no heat stress... it is still a matter of matter or non matter..

keys off... =D

Probably this will be my last blog update of the week..or maybe the month.. just in case I dun survive the EXTREME SUMMER HEAT...

Now .. I knew what it feels like to be in an oven like a marinated chicken...

the temperature today is 35+ degree celsius.. almost same like M'sia... but just for ur info.. summer sky is clear blue.. all the heat.. like OMFG...

and I only have a small table fan in my room... no air conditioning...

ya.. u can imagine in ur small pity tiny brain how it feels like.. lol

Here I shower... there I sweat again....

Shower...Sweat...Shower...Sweat... FARK!

To my celaka landlady... I promise u... ur water bill will rise beautifully this month... xD

If u want to know how summer feels like... I can tell u..

Everything in ur room feels warm.. ur study table feels warm.. ur bed..feels warm...when u lie down.. u sweat like fark...

I promise... this coming winter I will not complain how cold it is... because... COLD IS DEFINITELY BETTER THAN HOT!!!!! COLD = No sweat...u can sleep peacefully with ur comforter..heater.. and everything... HOT=u sweat like fark...and u cannot even sleep at night...!!! Please!! I have class everyday...

T__T what have I done to deserve a room that is burning like hell in summer..? aih..bad karma... (Intro to Buddhism the prof is a very good one... hahaha... one of the best!!) hahaha...

Please give me strength to survive in this extreme summer heat.... and please let me sleep soundly at night...without sweating... I know.. it is IMPOSSIBLE to not sweat now... unless it starts snowing tomorrow.. YEA!!! PLEASE SNOW..!! OO COME ON!! LET THE SNOW FALLS!!!!!

anyone knows anyway to keep ur body cool?

Saturday... Hmm... 15 mintues before 4am.. let me update my blog for abit.. hahaha

coz.. maybe after this I m not updating for a long time...

first...due to ...ermm.... writing blog is not fun anymore...

second... my blog seems so dead nowadays...

Ok..

Brazil... lost today to Netherlands.. FRUST TILL MAX ... !!! Everything turned colorless today..

the list of things-to-do I made before this one week holiday is so different from the list of things I done in this one week holiday..

Thing to do: Watch A team... well...then after that I really didn't want to watch...-lazy-..

Thing done instead: Watched The Last Air Bender...(this movie is only suitable for kids below 12 years old.....LOL...) ya..only the scene where the sea rises is awesome... =__= Zzz

Thing to do: Go to gym to exercise at least...work out a bit...

Thing done instead: Did 30 push-ups in room and 20 sit-ups..till now.. failed miserably.. hahaha

Thing to do: Read Pirate's Latitude (new one) by Michael Crichton

Thing done instead: Re-read Rick Riordan's Olympian series..and his new book.. The Red Pyramid.. (not bad...)

Thing to do: Cook or have something more decent... at least not fried rice again...

Thing done instead: still fried rice...

Thing to do: Read manga.. Bleach..

Thing done instead: Reading Doraemon... (Hey! come on.. Doraemon is still better...)

Thing to do: Buy soft drinks to put in fridge so this summer.. at least I have something cold to drink other than tap water...

Thing done instead: still tap water...everyday...

Thing to do: level up in facebook game "My Empire" ...

Thing done instead: still haven't finish building the Sphinx and Pyramid.. WTF

Thing to do: Find something cooler to do... like erm... maybe something interesting...

Thing done instead: Everyday doing the same shit...for one week... (Holidays = holy shit...) ... at least I had enough rest.. WooHoo..

Yeah guys.. it is just one week holiday.. what new things u expected me to do... hahaha....

Last Saturday.. "Yeah! finally a break!!"

Last Sunday.. "Oo... I have voluntary work today.. at least whole day gone.."

This Monday... "Yeah.. this week can sleep a lot..till very late...and chill out.."

This Tuesday... "Yeah! Finally can read manga.... it is so hot outside today..."

This Wednesday... "Jeez..why today so cold outside... ok.. read novels.."

This Thursday... "O__O Wow! It is already Thursday..."

Yesterday... "Hmm... took whole day to think what should I do with today..." (whole day gone..)

Today... "Freak... the day after tomorrow summer class second term starts... T__T"

Yea... above was my diary for this one week holidays... hahahaha.......

at least... finally.. I got a rest... =D without doing any shit... dun have to think any shit... dun have to rush any shit... xD Cheers!!

Actually... holidays...simply just let u rest ... dun need to do anything.. chill out... shut down ur mind.. and of course.. read Doraemon.... LOL.....

or either u can do it the other way...

Do everything (from A to Z..) .. read up ur left out course materials...(eg. protein sorting... xD ) ... make ur mind work like Intel i7 processor...and of course.. read Biology textbook... LOL...

I prefer the former one.. xD

Yeah... later (Saturday)... go gym..! and watch FIFA Germany vs Argentina.. and Spain vs Paraguay.. the former is just an empty promise I always made to myself.. xD

Anyway I just want to keep myself healthy and refreshed by exercising a little... not like I want to get muscles or wad (btw..I ady had... hahahaha..... shit u! syok sendiri.. =__= ) hahahaha

and of course.. paid so much fees for the campus gym.. of course must use once in a while.. xD

somemore.. best campus gym in Toronto... hahahaha

Ok.. Ciao! Keys off! xD (*Yawn.. watching two person cooking during midnight is just tiring...lol..)

Holy Freak.. reading manga online..Doraemon can be so hard when the internet is slow like shit...!!

hahahaha......

When u slept at 8pm and woke up at 10pm... what should u do?

1. try to sleep again.. FAILED

2. try find something to eat... FAILED

3. try to stream movie online... FAILED

4. try to read Bio textbook again... FAILED

5. online with mum... SUCCEEDED

6. Lying on bed and listen to all ur songs in mp3 almost 300 songs.. ... SUCCEEDED

7. try to cook something.. FAILED

8. re-watch Transformers.. FAILED.. lame..

then the clock showed 3 in the morning... What should u do if u still cannot sleep?

1. press ur ears to the door..and listen if there is anything outside...

2. Jog up and down the stairs till u tired..

3. Go hunt for ghost outside the house.. Ghostbuster!!

4. Sit on ur chair and spin round n round n round n round...

5. Make a list of shits u want to do tomoro which u know will never get done...

6. Take a shower at 3am sounds cool..

7. Go press ur ears at ur housemate's room .. listen if there is snore coming out from his room..

8. Count how many leaves are there on the plant in the living room..

9.Wander around the house... find out how many shoes on the shelf.. how many jacket on the stands...etc

10. count how many apples (or oranges..) are there in the basket and in the refrigerator..

11. Write a blog (if u have one) ... like what I did...

12. Find someone that u think will chat with u online...

13. Sit in the dark in the living room... Eerie...

14. Eat chocolates...

15. Stalk everyone friend's profile in the facebook...

16. like everyone's status update on facebook..

17. read everyone's blog...including all their friend's one... haha

18. play minesweeper on pc..lame..but still wonder why I never got the cute face wearing sunglasses...

19. Count how many shirts u have in ur wardrobe...

20. Open the cover of all ur electronic devices using small screwdrivers.. Watches...calculators..I-clickers..handphones... ya..and my fan.. lol... except my laptop.. xD

At the end.. it is 6 am in the morning...

Now... U know... What I am doing when I m not sleeping at 3 in the morning.. xP

Dun get freak out .. I do admit I am a freak! ... LOL.... xD

Cheers! Ciao people!

Keys off...

FIFA

I always thought England is a very good football team coz I seldom watch any football match except FIFA every 4 years... but hearing from friends about wad MU....then wad Rooney... =__= I always thought they are a fantastic unbeatable team...

BUT... today...after watching highlights of the match... Jeez.. THEY PLAYED LIKE SHIT!!!

Germany:England.. 4:1 LOL.... Can u see the big difference? 4:1?!?!

Plus.. from the highlights... found out that Germany definitely have a more disciplined...more organised controlling of the ball... their passing is just *speechless.... damn awesome... ENGLAND DIDN'T HAVE CHANCE AGAINST THEM AT ALL...! hahaha.....

Therefore, BALIK RUMAH LAH!!! hahaha..... I think they have better start training a new squad ... those old players... *aih..... One word.. SUCKS!!

HAHAHA..... I guess my this post will be hated by many England fans... hahaha.... =__= but seriously they sucks la... fact is fact.. hahaha... how many goals they scored so far till now? 3 goals only including today's one goal... WTF...

Yeah!! GERMANY ... now BRAZIL u better win this round again!! so...I can see a match between Germany and Brazil.. Finals? hahaha... WOW!! I m seriously waiting for it.. xD

Spain players also play not bad (They are fast..) ...Portugal too...(Cristiano Ronaldo!! u saw the ball on his back? Damn awesome skill that was!!) hahaha.....

But most importantly... I hope Brazil make it to the finals... hahaha.... if not.. I will be down for the whole farking day... xD Brazil against Spain..Portugal or Germany..will be another epic match to watch.. LOL....

x( But unfortunately... 11th July.. I have my voluntary work on... Arghh!!!!! FFFFFFF...!!

Responsibility vs A FIFA football FINAL!! ... x( damn hard to choose... hahaha

But.. aih.. I will still go to the voluntary work...coz it is my duty ... hahaha....

I would like to apologize for downgrading England's football team.. but seriously... their lost really disappointed me...coz I always thought they are good... hahaha..... anyway.. they still LOST!! xD

Jeez... I m so gonna be whacked by England fans on the street ... xD

But... anyway.. it is still a football game... NO BIG DEAL ok... (I just love to see Beckham's darkened face after the match...anyone saw his reaction?) LOL.... Epic weyh...

His darkened face reminded me of the time when we VIRCS lost our A-Drill competition champion title..at least we got second place ok..(the first place school has a coach! we trained by ourselves!!) hahaha.... those staff sergeants' celaka darkened face...hahaha....and u knew.. when u got back to school... it is going to be HELL... xD Those punishments..we remembered for life.. LOL...

=D I miss my brothers la.. they are having a gathering... and I was not back to join them.. x( T__T aih..... but anyway... we are brothers..and I will remember that for life too... xD coz.. no one can replace any one of u guys.. =D

Cheers! Keys off! =D

Tomoro Brazil against Chile... Brazil..! Brazil! Brazil!!

Some of u may wonder why Michael so supporting Brazil... coz.. the first time I watched FIFA was year 2002...and the team that won the cup was Brazil.. =D then year 2006 was Italy.. and year 2010 is going to be Brazil!! xD or maybe Portugal.. or Germany.. or Spain.. but still it is going to be Brazil... HAHAHAHAHA

Ciao!